Snoasis

[pizzashophottie]

Well, I just got back from church camp. I went with all of my friends from church. I had the best time of my life. Besides the fact that I cried like 4 times. There were good causes to crying though so it wasn't like "Ahh, I hurt my knee" it was like "Ahh, I'm fake". It was a bad realization but it is true. (I don't know if that sentence works, but I'll use it anyways). I also found out that my friends care for me more than I knew. The speaker was our intern Eddie Fearing. He rocks! His lessons were about being fake...or "plastic"...the picture he used was of a crash test dummy...so plastic worked. It made me think of my own life and how I live it at church and at school. At the end when Eddie was doing the altar call I pulled Krystle out of our row and took her down to the altar with me and immediately burst into tears. I couldn't help it, it just happened. I cried for like 20 minutes straight. Right after I started crying I could tell that Krystle had lost it too. (I have known Krystle my whole life, and her sister too, neither of us like to cry) Then her sister came down next to me and cried too. And it started a train of people with their hands on my shoulders crying for me and themselves. If you know me well, you know how I feel about crying. I don't like it at all. But I couldn't stop. When I was looking around at the end of my crying I saw that most of my friends were crying with me. It amazed me to see the people I thought that would be sitting there just trying to make the best of things were crying with me. But then again, the person I thought would be crying the hardest (besides me) was sitting there cracking jokes. It kind of upset me but I decided it'd be stupid to fight with them about it. The next morning at session, at the end I went up with someone (I think it was Krystle and her sister but I can't remember) and they were crying. I wasn't crying yet. I turned around to see who was behind me and I see Jake (my brother) kneeling there and I reached out and grabbed his hand and the second I did I started crying. I don't know why but Jake is like my weak spot. He is supposed to be the one who I like hate cuz he is my brother and he picks on me but every time someone talks about Jake I either feel like crap or (if it's a funny story) I laugh. This wasn't a very funny story so I felt terrible. Later that day, we went snow tubing. It was hilarious! Eddie got this bright idea to send like 5 tubes down at the same time with each of us linking to another tube. And we had the big tube with like 7 people in it, then like 4 tubes with 2 people in them. I wasn't gonna go but Eddie told me to go and ride down with Justin. So, we were in the tube and he moves his foot and we all take off it was so funny cuz 3 tubes went off on their own and it was just me and Justin and the big tube going down linked. Then, the big tube let go of my foot and Justin and I went straight towards a tree. Luckily, we didn't hit it but we sure did come clse. It was awesome! Then, at our next session I went and prayed with Alex and I didn't think I was gonna cry but I look up and see Jamie and Jordan crying and I started to. Then, I got all better a little while later. Saturday night...wow...we were having a camp fire and everyone was saying things they liked about camp and Jake spoke up. Again, there goes my weakness. He made this wonderful speech about the camp and he sang a song he wrote about getting real and I didn't think I was on the verge of tears but I didn't let them out. Then he said "I'm happy to have a family who loves me and cares for me and I can't wait to move back home on Wednesday" and I broke down. I will never forget the speech he made. After that was said, he said "If you have younger brothers and sisters (as I cry harder) then take care of them and be a good influence on them cuz they look up to you" I was, of course, sobbing at this point...laying in Alexis's lap with her crying on me and Jamie crying on me. It was no good and I couldn't help but cry for the whole speech and most of the others. It was an awesome weekend and I will never forget it. That is what church should be like, everyone who is your true friend should hurt when you hurt and if you feel bad they feel bad. Like the crying effect. One person starts and then the next thing you know...everyone's doing it! I wish the weekend never ended. I'm still sort of upset that when I needed that friend who was cracking jokes most they wasn't feeling the same thing. I wonder what that means. Cuz the friend didn't hurt when I did. I got to go though if you want more details *which might be impossible* ask me about them in person or on AIM. Talk to you later. **Maddy** P.S. Sorry so long!
Here's Jake's song
It's all about You
And it's not about me
Everything I do
Everything I see
It's just Your pen and paper
Dust in the wind
It's not for me
It's all part of Your plan