a later than usual yearender
This year has been the most weirdest I’ve had so far. Sheesh. “Major changes” and “out of the blue experiences” bombarded almost half of my year. Bizarrely, everything that happened only left this innocent being very idle and very, very VERY clueless, unlike before. I am totally weirded out by odd phenomena in my life, such as overly hard subjects complete with unpredictable teachers, an erratic and hectic schedule, new people, boys (I’m from an all-girl school for crying out loud!!), possessing and abusing freedom, love101 and a lot more.. tanginang kolehiyo yan! JOKE!
One thing is for sure.. my kiddo days are over. I have a strong feeling that I have really grown-up.. but unfortunately, with an unripe and juvenile outlook in life. I think that’s the reason why I am vulnerable with “certain things” that I encountered and will be encountering. Who can blame me? Wala naman talaga akong alam! I miss the days when everything was really easy.
I am guilty of analyzing everything.. I like to think of nonsense that eventually will make sense. (tamo! Sabi sayo e!) I’ve always made the mistake of scrutinizing even my emotions. Ika nga nila wrong mistake.. wrong na nga.. mistake pa! Sometimes I tend to forget that there are things that we just need to believe at without finding reasons behind it. Like fairies and.. err… love for instance! JOKE! BADUY!
Maybe I’m demanding too much from life that’s why I ended up like this. (ndi pala “ended”.. baka mamatay ako. “why I’m like this” lang pala) I’m so hooked up with my dreams that I am more likely forget what it is to be real… that there are such things that I have to face such as hurt and sadness that comes with puckered brows and tears. My hopes are too high... I think. According to this peculiar but good boy (naks! parang aso! :P) I know, there is more to life than what we desire personally. Moments with the people you love are much more fulfilling than material possessions. Appreciation is a better reward for deeds that are from pure hearts. I think I’ll keep this in mind throughout the year.
BUT! There’s a big BUT! (HAHAHAHA! Sinong teacher nga pala yung nagsabi nito?!) regardless of the worries, praning-ness and misunderstood feelings, I still am thankful of everything that happened. I’m thankful for the people who imprinted something in me. (naks! Parang nanalo akong award ha!)
I’ll end a year and start another one struggling out of an abyss of uncertainty.
Not trying to foretell, in humility, unequipped, and at a complete loss. :)
One thing is for sure.. my kiddo days are over. I have a strong feeling that I have really grown-up.. but unfortunately, with an unripe and juvenile outlook in life. I think that’s the reason why I am vulnerable with “certain things” that I encountered and will be encountering. Who can blame me? Wala naman talaga akong alam! I miss the days when everything was really easy.
I am guilty of analyzing everything.. I like to think of nonsense that eventually will make sense. (tamo! Sabi sayo e!) I’ve always made the mistake of scrutinizing even my emotions. Ika nga nila wrong mistake.. wrong na nga.. mistake pa! Sometimes I tend to forget that there are things that we just need to believe at without finding reasons behind it. Like fairies and.. err… love for instance! JOKE! BADUY!
Maybe I’m demanding too much from life that’s why I ended up like this. (ndi pala “ended”.. baka mamatay ako. “why I’m like this” lang pala) I’m so hooked up with my dreams that I am more likely forget what it is to be real… that there are such things that I have to face such as hurt and sadness that comes with puckered brows and tears. My hopes are too high... I think. According to this peculiar but good boy (naks! parang aso! :P) I know, there is more to life than what we desire personally. Moments with the people you love are much more fulfilling than material possessions. Appreciation is a better reward for deeds that are from pure hearts. I think I’ll keep this in mind throughout the year.
BUT! There’s a big BUT! (HAHAHAHA! Sinong teacher nga pala yung nagsabi nito?!) regardless of the worries, praning-ness and misunderstood feelings, I still am thankful of everything that happened. I’m thankful for the people who imprinted something in me. (naks! Parang nanalo akong award ha!)
I’ll end a year and start another one struggling out of an abyss of uncertainty.
Not trying to foretell, in humility, unequipped, and at a complete loss. :)