Sep 28, 2008 11:35
I can't be myself anymore because people will be watching me. I can't turn my back on anyone anymore. I can't do anything anymore. A lot of people will be watching my actions this quarter, so I have to be weary. Well, it's not that I have to be weary, but I don't want to be labeled. I've been so miserable lately and I know it shows. I don't socialize. I keep to myself. I'm anti-social in a social setting. I feel like I'm sinking into depression again. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what I want.
I'll fix myself on my own, but in the meantime, I can't show how miserable I am anymore. Only when I'm at home behind closed doors. God, this blows.
Actually, I know why I'm depressed. I'm just in complete denial. Depression, the state in which one one is subjected to negativity and the inability to care about taking care of oneself. I'm feeling it.