All is lost...i fade in emotion
Well, now...i am depressed more than ever...what shall i do....i feel so alone...with nothing...I'm so unhappy here...Im going to try to get away...but i dont think it will work to well... I going to try to get a job..im lookin a kmart...its kind of a far walk...but hell, ill do it. Ill find a way. Even if i have to beg someone to drive me..or just walk or what not... i just have to do anything to get out of here...this place is hell!!! I want to sleep all day.. I dont even want to wake up in the mornings...i dont want to come back home to this dreadful place. I feel like shit...i look like shit.. I dont even try.. I dont have the motivation to try... I cant be here. I want to leave.. I know that i could go live with a few people, but i would have to find the way to get away from my parents. I cant stand it anymore... this hurts.. i feel i deep ripping pain in my stomach.. i hate it, i hate it!!!!!! and that pain is not fake...I really feel it... i feel like my insides are being torn apart. GeT mE tHe HeLl OuTtA hErE!!!!!!!! oh... i dont know what to do....Im so confused... the only thing that kept me fairly straight is my hunny...yet, he breaks free and leaves me behind.. He says he wanted to take me with him...but yet..he couldnt wait to just leave...I dont get it...why couldnt he have helped me out a lil before he left so i could be closer to what i am trying to reach.. I cry...everytime im alone.. hell, im even crying now... If someone is out there...rescue me damnit... I need it... I cant take this pain anymore...im going completely crazy!!!!!