lol i was like wut
Things have been feeling a bit hectic in my head for the last little while, but I’m pretty sure I know what’s been bothering me, and right now it’s just a waiting game I have to play. I’m just really not a fan of the anxiety that’s returned. I haven’t felt it quite this persistently for a few years now, and it’s not fun. Being aware that it’s just in my head and my life isn’t actually imploding helps a lot, but I hate having to talk myself down from almost full blown panic attacks on such a frequent basis.
I got annoyed at the dread extensions and took them out. The short pink hair is back, only this time it’s a longer and I’ve finally decided fuck it, I don’t care. I have curly hair and now everyone else has to look at it. I’m going to let it keep growing so I can have long pink curly hair like the girl on the cyberdog website, because she’s rad. I almost never wear makeup anymore either, really only if I’m going out somewhere fancy or something. Sometimes I’ll still wear eye makeup because it’s fun, but I’ve just lost interest in smearing dead horse hooves on my skin just to try and fool people into thinking I have an even complexion. *
I mentioned it briefly last week, but Simon is now an outdoor cat! It’s a big change, but I can tell he is SOOOO happy to be outside. My neighbourhood is very cat-friendly - I live on an intersection of two bike paths that only allow one way, local traffic, so there’s not a lot of cars driving by that don’t live on my block. He mostly hangs out in the backyard and usually comes running when I call him, and then he follows me around and rolls around in the dirt and darts into the basement and always chills with me whenever I’m outside, which is really nice. It’s hard for me to not have him in the house but it’s worth it to see how happy he is playing outside. A lovely example of ‘if you love something…. LET IT GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO’
I finally started using the juicer cay and ty lent me!! IT IS AMAZING. For breakfast I had fresh carrot apple strawberry spinach nectarine kiwi mango juice. For someone who hates cooking and loves raw fruit and veggies, it’s like the best thing ever. It takes a lot of fruit to make a decent amount of juice so I am experimenting with mixing it with store bought juice, which has been fairly delicious. I think making juice is something I could seriously get into…. Unicorn blood… ENERGY JOOOOOCE.
I’m going to Manitoba in a couple weeks! Do you live there? We should hang out! I’ll be in town sept 1-7th and I’m actually REALLY EXITED! I haven’t really been back for purely recreational purposes since I left - usually I have been there for work, and last summer I spent like a day and a half there so that hardly counts. I’m hoping to get some good chill time in, check out some yoga and see laura get married! How normal.
*or whatever
I got annoyed at the dread extensions and took them out. The short pink hair is back, only this time it’s a longer and I’ve finally decided fuck it, I don’t care. I have curly hair and now everyone else has to look at it. I’m going to let it keep growing so I can have long pink curly hair like the girl on the cyberdog website, because she’s rad. I almost never wear makeup anymore either, really only if I’m going out somewhere fancy or something. Sometimes I’ll still wear eye makeup because it’s fun, but I’ve just lost interest in smearing dead horse hooves on my skin just to try and fool people into thinking I have an even complexion. *
I mentioned it briefly last week, but Simon is now an outdoor cat! It’s a big change, but I can tell he is SOOOO happy to be outside. My neighbourhood is very cat-friendly - I live on an intersection of two bike paths that only allow one way, local traffic, so there’s not a lot of cars driving by that don’t live on my block. He mostly hangs out in the backyard and usually comes running when I call him, and then he follows me around and rolls around in the dirt and darts into the basement and always chills with me whenever I’m outside, which is really nice. It’s hard for me to not have him in the house but it’s worth it to see how happy he is playing outside. A lovely example of ‘if you love something…. LET IT GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO’
I finally started using the juicer cay and ty lent me!! IT IS AMAZING. For breakfast I had fresh carrot apple strawberry spinach nectarine kiwi mango juice. For someone who hates cooking and loves raw fruit and veggies, it’s like the best thing ever. It takes a lot of fruit to make a decent amount of juice so I am experimenting with mixing it with store bought juice, which has been fairly delicious. I think making juice is something I could seriously get into…. Unicorn blood… ENERGY JOOOOOCE.
I’m going to Manitoba in a couple weeks! Do you live there? We should hang out! I’ll be in town sept 1-7th and I’m actually REALLY EXITED! I haven’t really been back for purely recreational purposes since I left - usually I have been there for work, and last summer I spent like a day and a half there so that hardly counts. I’m hoping to get some good chill time in, check out some yoga and see laura get married! How normal.
*or whatever