Apr 10, 2004 18:30
Im finally updating my LJ. This may mislead you to believe that my computer is fixed. Its not. It is still resting on my desk with all the purpose of an oversized papweight. Im hoping my new stuff will arrive and be up and running by Tuesday night. Realistically, Ill be lucky if Im back online by the end of the week. It'll happen eventually.
Its Saturday afternoon. Lauren, Kene and PJ just took off for the Red Sox game. Cant wait to see them all when they come back. Oughta be interesting. Itll be Kenes second game in two days. Something awesome happened to us yesterday. After my Chem MT (which I actually did pretty damn well on, sweet) we decided to go for a walk around Fenway to listen to the crowd at the game. We were walking around the park when some guy runs up to us and asks if we have tix for the game. We tell him no and he hands us two all-access passes to Fenway Park and shows us in through a side door. We were completely unprepared. It was awesome. We wandered around in a daze for a bit before looking for a good place to watch the game from. Kene explained to me that the green monster isnt a monster at all, its actually a big green wall. The concept took me awhile to grasp as there was an actual green monster running around. So, the wall is the green monster and the green monster is Wally. Got it. Watched the game from behind home plate. Kene gonna send me the pics he got on his camera phone. Got to stand around a bunch of drunk Red Sox fans arguing over who was more Irish, and more drunk. Lovely. Got my ass grabbed about half a dozen times en route to the bathroom, ate a Fenway Frank, had beer spilled on my leg. In the end the Sox lost to Toronto, and we were freezing our underdressed asses off but it was all good. The summer has a lot to live up to.
Not having a computer has helped me to re-realize a few things, so to speak. I first noticed it during the long ResNET outages from the beginning of the year. When online would go out all night in the Fall you would notice large numbers of Speare Hall Residents out in the hallways and common rooms. Everyone actually talking to and relating to each other without a computer screen in between. Something it seems at times went extinct with the dinosaurs, face-to-face conversations. I remember coming out of 246 on one of those nights and seeing tons of people sitting on opposite sides of the hall just chillin. They couldnt talk online, so they were forced out of their rooms into a truly social environment. This has been me for the past couple of days. Ive spent an incredible amount of time in the 3rd floors common room. I prefer it over our common room by far. Maybe its the lack of screaming girls, or the view. Im not too sure. Ive been able to spend time chattin with Crazy Dave lately. Last night we stayed up till late discussing Utah, Montana, California and various US states. I had the opporunity to study calc with Kevin. I met the baseball boys, and spent time talking about chilhood fights and parent issues with them and JB. I watched the UConn game with Vic. I was able to play pool with Sean, Dave, Kevin and Alli. Sean and I kicked ass as the aptly named team "us". So many people I never would have gotten to know if my computer hadnt have crapped out for a few days. They have actually offered to help me put it back together when the new parts get here as they realize I have no clue when it comes to computers.
Kind of on the same note, Ive gained a lot of hope for the human race. Especially males. Sometimes i feel like Ive met all the truly interesting, worthwhile people there are to meet. Obviously thats ridiculous, but thats how I feel at times. So many people I meet are so shallow, boring, or dumb as the proverbial brick. I was feeling kind of hopeless for awhile. Through this I was able to meet some very worthwhile people. One in particular really shattered some misconceptions I have. When he walked in the room with his incredible good looks and model-quality body I took one look at him and a million things ran through my head. Prejudices I suppose. I expected him to be either boring or dumb as anything. I was pleasantly suprised. He ended up being a "wicked" interesting person. Stayed up talking to him with the others for most of the night. Hes niether shallow nor stupid. Its nothing that I could ever hope for anything to happen with, and I dont. He doesnt know it, but just by being himself he gave me a lot of hope for everyone else I meet. I guess meeting new people isnt as pessimistic a process as I believed. I can never say thank you, so this is my way of thanking him for that.
So much going on lately. As far as people go Im juggling a lot between people from home and those here at NEU. Someone at home really needs me, been spending a lot of time of the phone w him. I cant wait to get home and give him a big hug. Been dispensing a lot of hugs here as well. Lots of people seem to be having a hard time of it lately. Everyone should know that Im *always* here to talk to. I love my friends dearly. I may not understand what everyone is going through all the time, never having been there myself, but I want to help. I want to listen. I want to make everything better, or at least try to help them make their situations better. Hugs and kissies to everyone. You can call me anytime, anyday. 24/7 my phone is on in case you ever need me. When things really suck just call me. Ill be right there, right there... youve got a friend.
Lauren and I stayed up late last night watching Good Will Hunting. Kene had tried to make us watch the movie several times, but as Lauren said "Ive never seen past the 'how do you like dem apples?' part because I always fall asleep". I think Ive made it a bit past that part, but not by much. I propped my eyelids open watching it until 4am. Its an awesome movie. One of the best Ive seen, so glad I finally watched it. It actually made me cry, which isnt something I can say for most movies. Well, any movies. I just dont cry at movies. This one made me tear up a bit. The movie was heartbreaking and hopeful all at the same time. *I wish I had never met you, because then I could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.* *True loss is only possible when you love something more than you love yourself.* Great movie. If you havent seen it do yourself a favor and go see it.
It was a beautiful spring day today. Brett and I walked out to the Tennis courts to say hi to Kene and Coleman then out to Quincy Market and Govt Center. There was some NCAA this going on at the center, we checked that out, as well as the cute Maine guys around. Ill take one of those, chocolate covered. Got a new shirt at Quincy, stopped at H&M and stalked the pair of attractive Irish soccer players we saw there. Back here on the T I was beat, so I passed out for a nap that I didnt get due to the revolving door on my room. PJ showed up from work afterwards with a full TGI Fridays dinner for us. We picnicked on my bed. Jack Daniels Chicken and Ceasar Salad hit the spot after not really eating all day. Things are really looking up for me right now. I did really well on my Chem MT, and I think I rocked out my Calc Quiz. The weather is good. Im going home soon. Im getting a bit of alone time now. Im comp is going to get fixed. All is well with me. I think I can make it now...
Well the sun is setting casting a soft orange glow on the windows opposite mine on Speare East. It quiet as everyones either home for Easter or at the Sox game. Theres a few guys playing wiffleball in the quad below the window. Their muffled shouts echoing gently off the walls. After this I think Ill take out the trash, and take a nice warm shower. Clean myself up a bit before going home with Lauren and Kene later. I miss Alli horribly. I miss James too. Veronica came to pick him up last night. Everyone will be back tommorow and things will return to some semblance on normality at least until I head for home on the 23rd. Then out at night, UConn Spring Weekend, T3 banquet, then presumably back up here to move Lauren into West B. Ive said it before, Ill say it again, as soon as next week is over Im golden. Cant wait. Im gonna head for the shower now. Hopefully next time Ill be talkin to you from my machine.
*If I live to be a hundred and never see the seven wonders, that'll be alright, if I don't make it to the big leagues if I never win a grammy I'm gonna be just fine 'cause I know exactly who I am. I am Rosemary's granddaughter the spitting image of my father and when the day is done my momma's still my biggest fan. Sometimes I'm clueless and I'm clumbsy but I got friends that love me they know just were I stand. It's all a part of me and that's who I am. So when I make a big mistake when I fall flat on my face I know I'll be alright should my tender heart be broken I will cry those tear drops knowin' I will be just fine cause nothin' changes who I am. I'm a saint and I'm a sinner. I'm a loser I'm a winner I am steady and unstable I am young but I am able.*
Lesson(s) of the Day:
-It is possible to meet interesting, attractive, intelligent people out there.
-Boston is beautiful in the sunshine.
-Im always here if you need me, 24/7.
-Not having a computer can be a good thing.
-Theres nothing like relating to people one-on-one face-to-face.
-TGI Fridays is sooo good after Stetson East all the time.
-I want to learn to play tennis.
-I miss soccer and ultimate frisbee barefoot summer nights.