how could you do that? my door buzzes at 5 in the morning or so and there you are. standing there. I said goodbye to you at the bar. but you insisted that you spend your last night here holding me in your arms. i never cried so much. it would've been so much better if i would've just not seen you again after the bar. me being drunk, you the same and us hanging out with each of our friends. my night was suppose to end with my wonderful phone call. but instead it was with me crying myself to sleep on your shoulder. I went to your house with you today to help you finish packing. I stayed until I saw you drive away. I shouldn't have done that. i never wanted you to know how much you affected me...well now you know. and now you're on your way home. You said you'd come back to see me as much as possible. but i don't think i want you to...
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time
moving on.
so the bar crawl yesterday was fabulous. we all made it all the way through. the boys that followed us were very impressed. as so were we. we got a lot of questions and i swear more people stopped me to talk to me then ever before at the bar. but all the stories and memories will be shared between us 10 girls for a long time. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONNA!!