Odd Me?
Am I odd? Do people not get me?
I attended the Mom group this morning and did not have such a good time. Insecurities from within revealed themselves and I was tempted to just up and run. My ability to assimilate with these women seems hard at times. I felt this way when I joined the group last year and that’s why I almost didn’t return after Cole’s birth. I eventually did revisit the group and made a good friend with another mom named Amy. Today Amy was sidetracked with other things and, so I was left to converse with others I did not know as well and that’s when the urge to flee set upon me. I eventually started talking with a mom about milk allergies since her son has one and I suspect Cole is allergic to dairy as well. Eventually though she just up and walked away while I was in mid sentence. I felt like an idiot. Was I talking her ear off and that was her way of saying, “I’m done talking to you, but can’t get a word in to tell you, because you won’t shut up.”
I am prone to boughts of talkativeness whenever someone shows interest in conversing with me. It stems from my aversion to awkward silences and also from my desire to have an adult discussion since I spend all day with my kids.
I’m not sure why I’m like this. Why I feel I am unable to connect with others. I know this is not completely true since I do have a few friends left over from my past and also a best friend in my former co-worker, Heather.
But, sometimes I just wonder … why am I so unlikable?
I attended the Mom group this morning and did not have such a good time. Insecurities from within revealed themselves and I was tempted to just up and run. My ability to assimilate with these women seems hard at times. I felt this way when I joined the group last year and that’s why I almost didn’t return after Cole’s birth. I eventually did revisit the group and made a good friend with another mom named Amy. Today Amy was sidetracked with other things and, so I was left to converse with others I did not know as well and that’s when the urge to flee set upon me. I eventually started talking with a mom about milk allergies since her son has one and I suspect Cole is allergic to dairy as well. Eventually though she just up and walked away while I was in mid sentence. I felt like an idiot. Was I talking her ear off and that was her way of saying, “I’m done talking to you, but can’t get a word in to tell you, because you won’t shut up.”
I am prone to boughts of talkativeness whenever someone shows interest in conversing with me. It stems from my aversion to awkward silences and also from my desire to have an adult discussion since I spend all day with my kids.
I’m not sure why I’m like this. Why I feel I am unable to connect with others. I know this is not completely true since I do have a few friends left over from my past and also a best friend in my former co-worker, Heather.
But, sometimes I just wonder … why am I so unlikable?