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So I haven't written in this journal in over a year. That is just the way things go though. All I have been doing in a lot of contemplating and chasing people that I should just forget about. You know the whole deal. Life. I am sick of always feeling like I am the one who cares more (or the one who cares at all...) I don't know what to do when I try to confront a situation and all I get is a black and white, take it or leaveit response. I guess I am not that important to some people. I guess it is easy to leave me behind? Why? Do I try too hard? I don't think it is an altogther lack of trying. I don't want to guess that I am valued. I want it to be without question. It never is though. Is it that I act so strong that people think that they can twist me around until I am broken and that I willstill bounce back like a rubber band into a sense of everything is still okay? I don't want to be played with, toyed with, fucked around with and then left to die. I want someone to stay.