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[pixiesrule]

alright. here's the deal. i decided to quit smoking weed for a while. it makes me very apathetic, and lately the thrill is just totally gone. it became such a thoughtlessly repetitive activity....in other words, a habit. pure and simple. didn't think about it, just did it. all the time. i often wound up meeting and hanging out with people who (i kind of knew this all along) i had no real interest in being around. it was just that we both/all smoked. and i feel like i've fallen out of keeping up with people i do actually care about. also, at some point, it became my cover-all excuse for not really doing much. i haven't really tried to play guitar in quite some time. gonna start doing more of that. and i haven't made or kept any sort of long-term plans....not that i need any right now, but i just feel like the smoking has encouraged a lot of stagnation in my life.

i just feel out of sorts, and i'm ready for a change. hopefully i'll have a valentine...that's in the works currently...news on that later. annie, you know her. old friend.

cliffhanger!