why am I crying?

Dec 04, 2008 09:47

This morning I set my alarm for 9:00 instead of 8:00 and I normally don't actually wake up until 8:15 so I slept in until 9:15. I guess I thought it was Wednesday instead of Thursday. So it's 9:15 and I forgot if Justin needed to be at class on time today or not (his starts at 9 and mine starts at 10). So I go and ask him and he says "well the ( Read more... )

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ladybug1219 December 4 2008, 16:40:56 UTC
there is something you can do! You know your biggest flaw is being too understanding and too nice at times. I know you feel like you can't just leave him fend for himself, you are in the position at times to help him and you feel like you have to because that is just who you are. The ideal thing for you to do is just say no more, say I will not be your own fucking chauffeur, if you have an early class where it is not convenient for me then tough, I don't owe you anything, I drive you around because I feel sorry for you and you can't expect me to be at your beck and call because you can't get your fucking life together.

It's not right Lura for him to be using you like that, I don't know if there is a bus he could take, or if campus is really too far to walk or what, tell him to get a fucking job and buy a bike if nothing else. You have no obligation to him whatsoever and you need to stand up for yourself.

I know its always easier said than done, I know it would be very hard to say all of this to him but this he should be out of your life in that sense, you are broken up for a reason like you said and it is about damn time he understands that. I love you.

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pixiepyro516 December 4 2008, 23:25:45 UTC
Luckily there is only one more day of school. After that I told him that I wouldn't take him to school next semester and this time I won't back down! I just wish he'd get his ass out of the apartment period. It's not healthy for either of us and he knows that, but he refuses to leave. Every time I bring it up he just gets mad and honestly I'm just so tired of arguing! He likes it at the apartment because it's more of a luxury than the dorms but he should live on campus because then that means he doesn't have to buy a car, pay for insurance, or pay for gas. He took out a $10,000 loan at the beginning of the semester and now is almost all out! It's sick! He thinks I want him to leave because I don't want him around me and yes that's part of it but he needs to leave to save money and do what's right for him! All of this just proves more and more that I'm not at all meant to be with him and I have become so irritated and annoyed with him that I no longer have any attraction to him or desire to be with him! He needs to think with his head and not his heart!

I do promise you and all of my other friends that agree with you that I won't back down, no matter how bad it makes me feel because you guys are right and I'm sick of this! I love you too!! :)

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