i keep looking back...
i keep looking back on a lot of things...
for example, my birthday, when Eric and Darla were here, and that amazing day spent with them, and my terrible cramps...
or my relationship/friendship with Gabe, which was so beautiful, even though we never met. i miss talking to him, we only talk rarely now, and it makes me sad. but i am glad that i will get to meet him in a few months...
i've spent a lot of time reflecting on past relationships, with Aaron, Joe, Erik, and so many more... and reflecting on my current 'relationship', if it can really be considered a relationship...
i just don't know about so many things... i don't know what to do. i feel like i'm losing my sense of who i am sometimes. and i have finals tomorrow. as i told my friend Max, "my statistics final is going to rape me, beat me, rape me again, and then murder me." i need a good grade in all of my classes, and i'm pretty worried about my grades, sadly. but it's my first semester, not that that matters to my parents. i have a feeling they wont be paying for college anymore. which means i can't afford it. and therefore, its over.
i don't know what to do anymore.
for example, my birthday, when Eric and Darla were here, and that amazing day spent with them, and my terrible cramps...
or my relationship/friendship with Gabe, which was so beautiful, even though we never met. i miss talking to him, we only talk rarely now, and it makes me sad. but i am glad that i will get to meet him in a few months...
i've spent a lot of time reflecting on past relationships, with Aaron, Joe, Erik, and so many more... and reflecting on my current 'relationship', if it can really be considered a relationship...
i just don't know about so many things... i don't know what to do. i feel like i'm losing my sense of who i am sometimes. and i have finals tomorrow. as i told my friend Max, "my statistics final is going to rape me, beat me, rape me again, and then murder me." i need a good grade in all of my classes, and i'm pretty worried about my grades, sadly. but it's my first semester, not that that matters to my parents. i have a feeling they wont be paying for college anymore. which means i can't afford it. and therefore, its over.
i don't know what to do anymore.