the one with a short entry
Oh hi. So I had this whole long post typed up, but then I realised it was just full of me complaining about stuff so I kinda deleted it. Believe me, it's better this way.
I am concerned about my ability to complete honours. It's just, I swing between music history being my one true calling and hating it and wondering why the hell I ever ended up being a music student in the first place, quite quickly. I know that I'll do it and finish it and even do a PhD about it. But that doesn't mean my mental state is going to be wonderful. That just means I'm really freaking stubborn and I have decided I am going to do those things, and I will. But I'd really prefer not to hate it all the time. Or half the time. I think I could live with a quarter of the time, because I'm assuming everyone hates honours about that much, no matter who they are.
I am concerned about my ability to complete honours. It's just, I swing between music history being my one true calling and hating it and wondering why the hell I ever ended up being a music student in the first place, quite quickly. I know that I'll do it and finish it and even do a PhD about it. But that doesn't mean my mental state is going to be wonderful. That just means I'm really freaking stubborn and I have decided I am going to do those things, and I will. But I'd really prefer not to hate it all the time. Or half the time. I think I could live with a quarter of the time, because I'm assuming everyone hates honours about that much, no matter who they are.