the one with the worries
Tonight I was supposed to be seeing Enter Shikari with Michael. But, as is often the case, I felt like absolute garbage today and didn't end up going out. I have missed out on that many shows because I've felt ill. Gnah. Anyway, I feel a lot better now. I'm not even sure what was wrong with me, I just felt reallyreally lethargic and achy.
I'm really quite concerned that the stress from uni coupled with the stress from my freaking mental family is going to make me snap this year. Yesterday I was so stressed out from worrying about that, along with other things such as "Why the hell won't Bob get a job/go to uni", that I almost broke up with him. Am definitely reaching the point where no more anxiety can be contained "safely" in my head. Essentially, to get through this year without exploding I feel as though I need my family to disappear and to live alone in an appartment so to have none of the Bob-related stresses. But, then there'd be the freaking-out-because-murderers-are-going-to-kill-me, etc etc. So yeah I think I'll just try and play things by ear (though I am garbage at doing that because I like LONG TERM PLANS and junk) and deal as best I can.
Mmmmjasmine green tea.
I'm really quite concerned that the stress from uni coupled with the stress from my freaking mental family is going to make me snap this year. Yesterday I was so stressed out from worrying about that, along with other things such as "Why the hell won't Bob get a job/go to uni", that I almost broke up with him. Am definitely reaching the point where no more anxiety can be contained "safely" in my head. Essentially, to get through this year without exploding I feel as though I need my family to disappear and to live alone in an appartment so to have none of the Bob-related stresses. But, then there'd be the freaking-out-because-murderers-are-going-to-kill-me, etc etc. So yeah I think I'll just try and play things by ear (though I am garbage at doing that because I like LONG TERM PLANS and junk) and deal as best I can.
Mmmmjasmine green tea.