I'M BACK with a recap
Hi all, i cannot believe how long its been since i posted anything. but life has been a bitch the last couple of years and which has brought my depression back on. this post is gonna be a rant/recap on the shit that's gone on in the last couple of years, with finished off with good things that's happened or things I'm looking forwards to.
well the last time i posted i had not long lost my granddad. and although its been nearly 3 years I'm still dealing with losing him. i miss him all the time and still can't believe he's gone. he was the one person i felt didn't judge me and loved me for me, and was proud of me even if i wasn't. my Nan is doing OK, she gets lonely a lot, but me, my dad and step mum are there for her. I'm the only one out of 8 of her grand kids she see often (several times a week).
not long after losing my granddad, my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer. she is doing well now and has completed her chemo, radio-therapy and monthly hospital visit for medication. she has now only got to take tables, but that's for another 4 years, she is also waiting to hear about having reconstruction surgery soon. it was hard on her, but she has been through so much that we knew she would get through it. she is a fighter.
my youngest sister went through bad bullying after coming out as bi. that caused a lot of issues for her and she is dealing with depression and anxiety. i try to help has much as i can what with dealing with depression myself for 14 years (i have anxiety issues as well, but its not to bad like my sisters). she has her ups and downs, but is doing better now. i think it helps she's finished school and has started 6th form, most of those that bullied her are at college.
i got a job in 21013 but hasn't there long after being screwed around i was out of work again beginning of 2014 but was back in work by June that year, although I'm not happy there and i am looking for another job, its work. but there is so many issues there and so much bitching and backstabbing. plus i had a fall while working and hurt my ankles and and knees, i was off sick for over two months and I'm still having issues with my ankles. it is also an anti-social job and don't get to see my mates much, which sucks. but i may have another job lined up, ill find out in a few weeks, so fingers crossed.
this year started out bad. my uncle (dad's brother) died on the 9th Jan and then my aunt (dad's sister and was mentioned in the same post about losing my granddad) died on the 26th Jan. 18 days after her brother and 2 days before his funeral. it was rough for us and then on 3rd Aug my aunt (this time my mums sister) died. she had been diagnosed with ovarian cancer which had spread to her stomach and lungs making it grade 5 cancer only a couple of months before. they were gonna start chemo and that she would have 10% chance of living 2 years. but after having to postpone it several times due to her stomach and lungs needed to be drained, they told us on the 31st of July (my birthday) that there was nothing that could be done and that we need to prepare ourselves. she died on the 3rd of Aug. she had only just turned 50 on the 21st of July.
my back has been getting worse, i was referred to physio, but it didn't help and after a few months i was referred back as it wasn't working. nothing more as been done since. and i was again diagnosed with depression earlier this year and was put on anti-depressants although i don't take them as iv gotten through it before without them and i cannot take them anyway due to my pain medicine (only found out after reading the leaflet that came with them).
with everything going on i haven't rewritten any of my old fan fiction or started any new ones, but i do have my own laptop now so hopefully i will be able to start soon. i will hopefully be able to post on here more as well, i have got the app on my iPhone, but its a temperamental bitch and doesn't post comments most times (does anyone else have this problem??).
iv also got a new car, which is a lot better than my old one, this one hasn't broken down on me like that last one often did and is cheaper on fuel. and is a 5 door one finally. while its not the car i want, i am happy with it.
in just under 2 weeks me and my youngest sister are going to a con in stoke call Stoke-Con-Trent, lol. i cannot wait, neither can my sister (which is her birthday prezzie from me, cuz i am an awesome big sister :P) there is quite a few actors and comic artists going, but its late now and i post more about it later. my other sister is back in uni next month, its her last year. and I'm so proud of her, even if she ignores me when i tell her not to age anymore grr.
how r ya all, hope you have had a better time than me and sorry for ranting about my crappy life, but its easier for me to get it out with my online friends who iv never met on here than to talk about it to my famiy and friends.
well the last time i posted i had not long lost my granddad. and although its been nearly 3 years I'm still dealing with losing him. i miss him all the time and still can't believe he's gone. he was the one person i felt didn't judge me and loved me for me, and was proud of me even if i wasn't. my Nan is doing OK, she gets lonely a lot, but me, my dad and step mum are there for her. I'm the only one out of 8 of her grand kids she see often (several times a week).
not long after losing my granddad, my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer. she is doing well now and has completed her chemo, radio-therapy and monthly hospital visit for medication. she has now only got to take tables, but that's for another 4 years, she is also waiting to hear about having reconstruction surgery soon. it was hard on her, but she has been through so much that we knew she would get through it. she is a fighter.
my youngest sister went through bad bullying after coming out as bi. that caused a lot of issues for her and she is dealing with depression and anxiety. i try to help has much as i can what with dealing with depression myself for 14 years (i have anxiety issues as well, but its not to bad like my sisters). she has her ups and downs, but is doing better now. i think it helps she's finished school and has started 6th form, most of those that bullied her are at college.
i got a job in 21013 but hasn't there long after being screwed around i was out of work again beginning of 2014 but was back in work by June that year, although I'm not happy there and i am looking for another job, its work. but there is so many issues there and so much bitching and backstabbing. plus i had a fall while working and hurt my ankles and and knees, i was off sick for over two months and I'm still having issues with my ankles. it is also an anti-social job and don't get to see my mates much, which sucks. but i may have another job lined up, ill find out in a few weeks, so fingers crossed.
this year started out bad. my uncle (dad's brother) died on the 9th Jan and then my aunt (dad's sister and was mentioned in the same post about losing my granddad) died on the 26th Jan. 18 days after her brother and 2 days before his funeral. it was rough for us and then on 3rd Aug my aunt (this time my mums sister) died. she had been diagnosed with ovarian cancer which had spread to her stomach and lungs making it grade 5 cancer only a couple of months before. they were gonna start chemo and that she would have 10% chance of living 2 years. but after having to postpone it several times due to her stomach and lungs needed to be drained, they told us on the 31st of July (my birthday) that there was nothing that could be done and that we need to prepare ourselves. she died on the 3rd of Aug. she had only just turned 50 on the 21st of July.
my back has been getting worse, i was referred to physio, but it didn't help and after a few months i was referred back as it wasn't working. nothing more as been done since. and i was again diagnosed with depression earlier this year and was put on anti-depressants although i don't take them as iv gotten through it before without them and i cannot take them anyway due to my pain medicine (only found out after reading the leaflet that came with them).
with everything going on i haven't rewritten any of my old fan fiction or started any new ones, but i do have my own laptop now so hopefully i will be able to start soon. i will hopefully be able to post on here more as well, i have got the app on my iPhone, but its a temperamental bitch and doesn't post comments most times (does anyone else have this problem??).
iv also got a new car, which is a lot better than my old one, this one hasn't broken down on me like that last one often did and is cheaper on fuel. and is a 5 door one finally. while its not the car i want, i am happy with it.
in just under 2 weeks me and my youngest sister are going to a con in stoke call Stoke-Con-Trent, lol. i cannot wait, neither can my sister (which is her birthday prezzie from me, cuz i am an awesome big sister :P) there is quite a few actors and comic artists going, but its late now and i post more about it later. my other sister is back in uni next month, its her last year. and I'm so proud of her, even if she ignores me when i tell her not to age anymore grr.
how r ya all, hope you have had a better time than me and sorry for ranting about my crappy life, but its easier for me to get it out with my online friends who iv never met on here than to talk about it to my famiy and friends.