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Im sorta getting pissed off right now. One of my friends, just doesnt now when to not say things. I was over at my friends tonight, and i got on my aim at my friends place. My friend messaged me, and started talking shit about my friend, who was sitting right next to me. Ok im sure u dont like it when people say shit about you, hell i know i dont, so why not just do it. So you had a bad experience with that person one time....get over it. Thats no need to keep saying stuff when u have only met that person one time. And they were DRUNK!!!! So gee...maybe since my friend was drunk, they werent acting in a way where they could really control themselves? I dunno, just a thought. How about giving them a second chance. I know i give everyone at least a few chances before i make a decision about how i feel about them. Anyways a lot of things lately have been bugging me about the way some of my friends have been acting lately. Its starting to rub off on me too. I feel as if sometimes i do some jerkish things, and actually act like a jerk or an asshole...just someone i totally dont wanna become. Then me and bruce were talking and he was like....well if u become an asshole and a jerk, ur gonna get the booty. And im like...yeah thats true. This is a tough decision. Become a jerk, and/or someone who i really dont wanna become, and get booty lol. Or stay me...and get no booty, but maybe have a relationship or a few sometime in the future. Man....its hard ya know. Cause sometimes when u cross certain thresholds...its hard not to go back. I know cause ive done some things that i wished i hadnt have done, and there have been consequences for them as well. But ill tell ya...im really trying hard not to become that asshole. But some of my friends, who are becoming more of an asshole everyday, are making it pretty hard for me.
Anyways...the other day my mom came up to get my dishes from me. She told my dad that the cups smelled like alcohol. So my dad confronted me about it, and so i had to tell him that i do drink. Honestly...im surprised at how he took it. I thought he was gonna start yelling at me and go through all my shit in my room. But he was really calm and let me explain how much of a responsible drinker i am, and that i dont drink nearly as much as some of my friends do, and that he can literally ask any one of my friends and they would tell you the same. So basically i didnt get in trouble for it lol. Which im pretty glad. Although im sorta freaking out about what my dad is gonna do the next time i come home at like 4 in the morning lol. Oh well.
So in case some of you that read this didnt know. I had something happen to me thursday night, that...well...was basically a repeat of the worst night of my entire life. I dont wanna go into details, but it wasnt as bad as the first time, because i was able to leave, unlike the other time. So yeah...in regards to my last post...because of that event, i am not torn between 2 girls anymore. Although im like 99% sure that i dont even have a chance with that other girl, cause she just simply doesnt feel the same way about me. But ima keep trying with her, but im not gonna shut myself off from other girls. Especially since me and her probably wont happen lol. But yeah...thats all i gotta say about that.
And finally...my cousin is coming down tomorrow!!!! Ever since i learned that a few days ago, each time i get depressed about something, i just think about lisa coming down and i get all happy lol. YAY!!!! Shes like 40 or so, but shes the friggin most koolest person on earth!!! I can tell her anything. I remember last time she was here, we had a lil talk just me and her. And i told her i did pot and drank, and she was telling me all these awesome stories of how she used to do shrooms, pot, etc...Even though shes a lot older than i am, we still connect. I try to keep her up on things people our age like too lol, cause she wants to stay young at heart just like the rest of us. So yea...if im not online or talking much during the week, its cause im chillin with her.
Thats it i guess, later.
Anyways...the other day my mom came up to get my dishes from me. She told my dad that the cups smelled like alcohol. So my dad confronted me about it, and so i had to tell him that i do drink. Honestly...im surprised at how he took it. I thought he was gonna start yelling at me and go through all my shit in my room. But he was really calm and let me explain how much of a responsible drinker i am, and that i dont drink nearly as much as some of my friends do, and that he can literally ask any one of my friends and they would tell you the same. So basically i didnt get in trouble for it lol. Which im pretty glad. Although im sorta freaking out about what my dad is gonna do the next time i come home at like 4 in the morning lol. Oh well.
So in case some of you that read this didnt know. I had something happen to me thursday night, that...well...was basically a repeat of the worst night of my entire life. I dont wanna go into details, but it wasnt as bad as the first time, because i was able to leave, unlike the other time. So yeah...in regards to my last post...because of that event, i am not torn between 2 girls anymore. Although im like 99% sure that i dont even have a chance with that other girl, cause she just simply doesnt feel the same way about me. But ima keep trying with her, but im not gonna shut myself off from other girls. Especially since me and her probably wont happen lol. But yeah...thats all i gotta say about that.
And finally...my cousin is coming down tomorrow!!!! Ever since i learned that a few days ago, each time i get depressed about something, i just think about lisa coming down and i get all happy lol. YAY!!!! Shes like 40 or so, but shes the friggin most koolest person on earth!!! I can tell her anything. I remember last time she was here, we had a lil talk just me and her. And i told her i did pot and drank, and she was telling me all these awesome stories of how she used to do shrooms, pot, etc...Even though shes a lot older than i am, we still connect. I try to keep her up on things people our age like too lol, cause she wants to stay young at heart just like the rest of us. So yea...if im not online or talking much during the week, its cause im chillin with her.
Thats it i guess, later.