I'm tired of writing depressing headlines...
Ok, you know the deal. Today I'm either pissed, depressed, or stressed. Well, right now I am just angry. I'm angry at everything. I'm angry at people. So I guess that would fall into the catagory of being pissed. Ok, first of all I don't know what's going on with David now. He says something good will happen and it turns out to be total and complete bullshit. I told him I can't see him anymore until he gets over his disorder because I really can't be supportive of it right now. He is just really pissing me off. And then today I found out that my cat is sick and I think he's dying and I don't know why...and to top it all off my friend gives me ride to counseling, drops me off at home, and goes to hang out with his friend and doesn't even invite me. Now I'm stuck at home bored as hell while he's out having fun...guess he never wanted me around in the first place. I'm still confused between these two guys. I don't want to leave david but ryan makes me happy whenever we go out. We have fun and stuff and today he blows me off. Well, I don't really want a relationship with him even though he treated me like royalty almost when we did go out. But I'm not comfertable around him as I am with David and he all of the sudden doesn't want a relationship with me anymore when I said I was keeping the baby. It's like all of the sudden his fellings for me were just gone and I am very hurt even though I still want to be with david just not right now. I know, this is the same old confusing bullshit that I rant about and people are tired of hearing, but I'm sorry that's just the way my life is right now. Anyways, David has not been home all day and I have been trying to contact him all day...panic anxiety my ass...he's been gone all damn day!! ARRG!!! Anyways I'm going to attempt to have a life again like I once did at one time...