Another Shitty Day....
Today was another shitty day.... i never felt more alone...more worthless... useless or miserable...i think the last time i felt this bad was wen me and Spencer broke up.... well anyway... all today i couldn't concentrate... i was too pissed off... i was completly enraged... like if anyone came near me and said something to me i didn't like I would blow up...it seemed like everyone and their mothers got on my nerves...ESPECIALLY.... in GSA when my "friend" was all on my girlfriend...who just so everyone knows dumped me again... and like I know hes gay but come on!!! i dont need to see one of my friends all up on my ex while im sitting with out her almost crying... yea thats really smart... so i just sat their snapping my hair tie on my wrist and i just watched as it got red and the more he pissed me off the more i did it...Is everyone out to fuck with me?! i seriously think theres no point anymore... but im moving on and I'll be the first to admit it wont be easy but hey, I came this far with just a couple scars and a few long hours i spent crying and im still in one piece...things cant get ANY worse. after skool i was with angie for a while... that girls awesome she made me feel alittle better... shes a good friend...and a good smoking buddie... but she got my mind off wat happened for a while and i apperciate her for doing that... after i smoked like 3 ciggs i went inside and chilled with Mairead,Vanji,Alyssa, and Meghan Goodine.... there amazing friends... they always no what to say wen im down in the dumps (as my mom says) that really makes me feel better....like i no that some people out there love me.... REALLY LOVE ME!
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