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I might go to Seattle today, and am also going to the fire house. I went there yesterday, and today I have to fill out my aplication. I tried calling travis yesterday, but he wasn't home. Probably picking up his new drumset. Julie hung-out with Jerod, paul and corey, and some other people of goodness (?) I'm rather bored. Been listening to the beatles lately, skateboarding around my house because I'm to timid to actually go to the skatepark anymore. Uhm. Yup. There's more to it than that, but I'll leave it at that rather than everything else that's going on, because everything that's going on I wish wasn't half the time.
(ps. I've had three ciggarrettes in two weaks) (pss. stress has filled up emotion) (psss. not a rather fasinating end to a off the line start) [I've figured I loose track of what I'm writting when I'm thinking while accomplishing poetry, so the lack of organization is illiberating] [Eyes glare glimmer, slame me down light brights, night clides clouds drift at ease to pase] [I'm horribly terribly timidly mild at strummin gthe sorrow out of the spiral. It lingers inside of me to let out an utter, explaining in inspiration, yet I know and also do anxiously worry that I do, and am not - keeps going] [In most of honesty - somehow I thought - green grass, love, black nails I drempt of - blue stars, pretty lights, beautiful nights I admired - strength and inspiration, imagination, no fear. I was driven by - competition, motivation, role models. I was hurt by doubt 'reality', what they told me was: stereotypes, jelousy, no self-confidense, dishonesty, horrible truthes, lies, pain. It may be rather easy for me to explain myself. It is my memories that are difficult for anyone else to feel.] [drifter falling deepy fast in iternity swifting gently acting smoothly blister burning, drugs to shots to shoot em' ups and hullisingainetic proposells of a loss for words to describe inretional and inatomate objects.] [the water is cold. I hope the mail shows. and although I've checked the mail a couple times it only comes once a day and the water still is cold no matter how many times I check it.] [birthdays: jayden: sep. 28th christine: dec 22ed Julie: june 15th travis p: dec 7th garrett: auguest 6th my mom: january 12th] [if you have anybody's birthday or your own, please write it down. I'm collecting birthday dates. and I need more licence plates. Yes, neeeed. "save room for the tuna!" - gir that's all that I'm thinking now, exept what IN THE WORLD AM I GOING TO DO IN SEATTLE!? No idea. I'm going to the cure concert by the way... it'll be awsome]