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it needs to stop.... me liking this boy..... it REALLY does.
it's not worth it.... we flirt.... and i like him A LOT more than he likes me.... and this makes me want to cry sometimes.
i went to their party tonight, and he was just amazing.... but i can't help but think that if i never showed up, he wouldn't have noticed nor cared....
i only went because he asked me to go... and when i got there he didn't even notice until i had been around for like 10 minutes...
whatev, it's for the best.... it just hurts.
i haven't felt like this in a while.... it feels like my heart could break, and there isn't even anything to cause it to break... not like we were dating.....
just talking until 3am almost every night....
not like we were, are, or ever will be anything....
i need this to stop....
i want to be numb.
it's not worth it.... we flirt.... and i like him A LOT more than he likes me.... and this makes me want to cry sometimes.
i went to their party tonight, and he was just amazing.... but i can't help but think that if i never showed up, he wouldn't have noticed nor cared....
i only went because he asked me to go... and when i got there he didn't even notice until i had been around for like 10 minutes...
whatev, it's for the best.... it just hurts.
i haven't felt like this in a while.... it feels like my heart could break, and there isn't even anything to cause it to break... not like we were dating.....
just talking until 3am almost every night....
not like we were, are, or ever will be anything....
i need this to stop....
i want to be numb.