Kyle rave.. skip if you don't want to hear me gloat.
if I have not stressed just how important Kyle is to me.. I really should say it again. I've been feeling weird for a few days, (other than being crappy sick), and not only did he notice, he's been trying to figure out on his own what was wrong with me. Finally, when we were laying in bed trying to go to sleep last night, I had a little bit of a breakdown. I turn 20 in a few weeks, which, I know, isn't a humungous deal.. but I've realized I'm having a really difficult time shedding the "I'm a little kid" skin.. and putting on the "I'm an adult now" skin. It's not as if I haven't lived on my own since I moved to Toledo when I was 17, or had my own apartment and bills before, I guess there's just something truley different about living with your signifigant other.. and actually being an adult. The little kid in me is just having a really hard time turning into an adult. Anyways, Kyle (who had to be at work at 7) stayed up with me, telling me about what he went through when he was turning 20.. which turned out to be practically the same thing. I felt horrible keeping him awake with my stupid shit, and he was more worried about making me feel better.
I probably have a year and a half, possibly 2 years of school left (at the rate I'm going), and Kyle graduates in 9 months. We were talking about how different our lives are going to be once he gets a real job, how soon we can get a house, and all of those things. It's crazy, that even though we have just now been together a year, I just know that all of this is right. I have someone who wants nothing more than to take care of me, so I can write, and do what I love. I don't know how I would ever find someone else who suited me better.
I still feel all bleh.. but.. it's time to get ready to go to work. Just needed to write out how blessed I feel today to have him in my life. cherish those who you love.
*Sarah*
I probably have a year and a half, possibly 2 years of school left (at the rate I'm going), and Kyle graduates in 9 months. We were talking about how different our lives are going to be once he gets a real job, how soon we can get a house, and all of those things. It's crazy, that even though we have just now been together a year, I just know that all of this is right. I have someone who wants nothing more than to take care of me, so I can write, and do what I love. I don't know how I would ever find someone else who suited me better.
I still feel all bleh.. but.. it's time to get ready to go to work. Just needed to write out how blessed I feel today to have him in my life. cherish those who you love.
*Sarah*