Laying down and dying tonight is such a lovely idea.
You know, I've forgotten how to be me.
I know that might sound stupid, but yeah. I realized that today.
I can't sew, I can't put a decent outfit together anymore. I can't draw, I can't rant.
I'm letting my feelings get the better of me. I'm getting smacked around emotionally and I'm not doing anything about it.
Grawr. I feel like I'm in someone else's body. Or someone's taken over my head and I can't think straight.
I want to write, I wanna draw again, I wanna sew, I wanna be proud of something I made. It's not working.
Madt's out with some friends. No one to talk to. I'm slowly stewing in my frustration and I don't know what to do.
I don't know what will happen when I finally boil over. I'm not liking my job anymore. I'm getting more piercings soon.
I need a fucking hug, guys. I miss those hugs hardcore.
Paul wanted to hang out today, I turned him down...again. He just doesn't get it, and it makes me sad.
I wish I knew what was going on in his head.
I look like shit without makeup.
I'm really thirsty.
Still horribly angry about my hole closing up.
In 5 days it'll be my 2nd month and 20th day meat/cruelty free. Thanks Angelcakes.
Josh came back to town. We're all extremly happy about it. Missed that asshole like mad.
Planning in process for Hollywood fieldtrip Friday night.
I know that might sound stupid, but yeah. I realized that today.
I can't sew, I can't put a decent outfit together anymore. I can't draw, I can't rant.
I'm letting my feelings get the better of me. I'm getting smacked around emotionally and I'm not doing anything about it.
Grawr. I feel like I'm in someone else's body. Or someone's taken over my head and I can't think straight.
I want to write, I wanna draw again, I wanna sew, I wanna be proud of something I made. It's not working.
Madt's out with some friends. No one to talk to. I'm slowly stewing in my frustration and I don't know what to do.
I don't know what will happen when I finally boil over. I'm not liking my job anymore. I'm getting more piercings soon.
I need a fucking hug, guys. I miss those hugs hardcore.
Paul wanted to hang out today, I turned him down...again. He just doesn't get it, and it makes me sad.
I wish I knew what was going on in his head.
I look like shit without makeup.
I'm really thirsty.
Still horribly angry about my hole closing up.
In 5 days it'll be my 2nd month and 20th day meat/cruelty free. Thanks Angelcakes.
Josh came back to town. We're all extremly happy about it. Missed that asshole like mad.
Planning in process for Hollywood fieldtrip Friday night.