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man im so fucking bored. i want to start school....ehh...not! i jus want to get out of my house. im sick of babysitting all the time. i start school the 24th. but next thursday i gotta go get my books and shit. eh...its gonna blow balls to be back there. i jus want to go and get school over with.
mark might be leaving to ohio tomorrow and come back monday. his sis is goin away for college and he might go with his mom to take her. they are flying,i thought they would drive,since its only like 6 hrs away,but eh...i dunno. i dont really want him to go. cuz that chick is there(rhea). i was being a bad but very curious girlfriend and i looked thro his text messages on his phone. and there was one from her and it said something along the lines..."i thought you were coming back to ohio,for good. i love you and i miss you.what has gotten into you, you've changed." it made me sad. there were more, but i didnt get to see them. im gonna check tonight. i know this is very bad of me, but shit i need to know. i dont want to go on with this relationship if hes still inlove with her and shit. thats jus not gonna work with me.
tomorrow is my moms birthday. eh...i hate her. i dont think i wrote about this, but i had talked to my aunt and she told me the last time she had talked to my mom, my mom was pregnant...with my aunts bfs baby. fucked up. i know. but then she said that my mom was gonna give the baby up for adoption. that pissed me off so bad. my mom is so fucked up. im never gonna be like her.
i think at the end of the month my half-bro(from my mom) is gonna come up here to visit me. :) i hope so. i miss him. i havtm seen him in 4 yrs.