Pain?
My lower back has been killing me since I got back from Saint Louis, not to mention my shoulders and lower legs have been burning. I'm not sure why this is, but I don't want to go to the doctor because it's dumb to whine about such small pains. Ok well my lower back hurts A LOT but just carrying on seems to be the only way I can deal with it. I can't really explain to my mother how my back hurts because she has an exam to worry about and her own back. I can't explain it to shaun because well... he's homeless and his legs hurt from begin scrunched up in the car all night. My Dad's lower back is hurting him too, but I cannot complain to him because right now he has a really bad sickyness. I am starting to feel shitty too, but I wonder if my lower back and legs hurt because some thing is begin pinched...
Lately I have been really looking into religion. I feel like I am begin pulled in one direction to be a born again catholic while wicca has open understanding arms. Is it ok if I just float between the two? Do I have to decide? I love how safe and loved wicca feels but my family wants another thing from me. I can't let my family down. It's... complicated.
Shaun has an appointment with Neighboring today. I'm a little excited, he's finally getting the help he needs. I think this will be extra good for him.:D
I wish my mom knew how much shaun has been helping me since I got home. He's the only one that helps me around the house. But because he doesn't do it when she's home she doesn't see him working. Ughs. Life has been a bit stir crazy. I have to sign up for classes. UGHS. I don't want to go back to school. Can't I just...live? God damn. Oh shwell. I know what I want to be and I'd better work at it. Oh I hope I do.
Lately I have been really looking into religion. I feel like I am begin pulled in one direction to be a born again catholic while wicca has open understanding arms. Is it ok if I just float between the two? Do I have to decide? I love how safe and loved wicca feels but my family wants another thing from me. I can't let my family down. It's... complicated.
Shaun has an appointment with Neighboring today. I'm a little excited, he's finally getting the help he needs. I think this will be extra good for him.:D
I wish my mom knew how much shaun has been helping me since I got home. He's the only one that helps me around the house. But because he doesn't do it when she's home she doesn't see him working. Ughs. Life has been a bit stir crazy. I have to sign up for classes. UGHS. I don't want to go back to school. Can't I just...live? God damn. Oh shwell. I know what I want to be and I'd better work at it. Oh I hope I do.