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why am i incapable of being alone?
just sitting in my apartment, listening to music and reading should suffice. i should be comfortable enough at 22 years old to be able to hang out alone. with myself. and not feel like a disappointment.
but that's just it. i'm disappointed. like i'm never enough for myself. i don't know what that says about me. because... i like me. i like who i am, the things i do and say, the way i look. i am comfortable with being this person. and yet... underneath it all... i'm not enough. i'm always looking for a better offer.
i don't know what that says about me, but i'm sure its something terrible.
just sitting in my apartment, listening to music and reading should suffice. i should be comfortable enough at 22 years old to be able to hang out alone. with myself. and not feel like a disappointment.
but that's just it. i'm disappointed. like i'm never enough for myself. i don't know what that says about me. because... i like me. i like who i am, the things i do and say, the way i look. i am comfortable with being this person. and yet... underneath it all... i'm not enough. i'm always looking for a better offer.
i don't know what that says about me, but i'm sure its something terrible.