knew things were too good to last...
so the other shoe finally dropped last nite. I knew I was too happy for things to go any better. Kyle and I finally had the talk I've been dreding. He and robbie are going to get an apartment/house whatever. He's gonna start working 10 hour days and working weekends so he can pay for his truck, pay for my car, and get a place with robbie. Which leaves little to no time for me and him. I don't know if this means were over or what. When we talked about this a while ago, it was like it'd be pretty much back to what it was. "friends" I let him get close... I got so comfortable spending all my free time with him that the thought of not being able to see him.. hurts. :( He told me last nite that us not being able to see each other isn't going to stop him from paying for my car. Do you even understand how bad I want to post-pone school so i can pay for my car that way things are easier on him. I don't want to stop seeing him, i like him, i like being around him. he makes me smile. and the thought of not having him, of him not being mine.... i don't even want to think about it. I just wish rite now he'd answer my calls... or return them... he said he'd call me today. I told him i got off at 5... it's 9:14. he's prolly still working with his grandpa.. i'm going to go i don't wanna think about him ne more.
Much Love
Traci
Much Love
Traci