A public apology
To Katiemakespie:
Though I'm not even sure you read that whole rant I so hastily posted after that boy screwing incident, I feel the need to actually apologize as opposed to just acting as though I'm no longer upset because I've apologized to you in my brain. I apparently got the idea into my head that telepathy works. Anyway, to put it simply, I'm sorry. You're perfectly allowed to make your own decisions. Even poor ones. I know I made most of mine in my first two years of high school, and rumor has it I was so lucky as to get my own teenage insanity out of the way early. Finding yourself and becoming comfortable with your own identity in any manner is always difficult, and when it's something so controversial as sexuality, it just becomes more difficult. We only have so many years to figure out where we're going with life, because eventually we have to start getting there, and that decision-making process always leaves some kind of carnage in its wake. I also shouldn't have made so many assumptions about you and Genevieve's relationship. On the surface, it always seemed so wonderful, and she was the picture of a sweet little girl any time I was around her, but the same can be said of one of my most unsuccessful significant other (who shall remain nameless), and he certainly gave me a hell of a time. In short, you can never be sure of what is happening on the inside of any situation that you aren't actually part of, and I had no place to pretend that I knew all of the fact of your life. The relationship I was talking about previously resulted in what was likely one of the worst decisions I've made in my entire life in regards to the feelings of others, but one of the best decisions I've ever made for myself, and how are you going to be able to keep those you care about happy, if you're not yet happy yourself? I know it sounds selfish, but any attempt I make at cheering someone up when I'm depressed as well is rarely successful, and always half-assed. I really do wish you the best in the future. I'm so happy you're enjoying college even though it's stressful, and I'm selfishly glad you miss us. All the best to you and this John character I've never met. I hope you enjoy much more happiness than you've ever had before.
Much love,
Katiesanspie
Though I'm not even sure you read that whole rant I so hastily posted after that boy screwing incident, I feel the need to actually apologize as opposed to just acting as though I'm no longer upset because I've apologized to you in my brain. I apparently got the idea into my head that telepathy works. Anyway, to put it simply, I'm sorry. You're perfectly allowed to make your own decisions. Even poor ones. I know I made most of mine in my first two years of high school, and rumor has it I was so lucky as to get my own teenage insanity out of the way early. Finding yourself and becoming comfortable with your own identity in any manner is always difficult, and when it's something so controversial as sexuality, it just becomes more difficult. We only have so many years to figure out where we're going with life, because eventually we have to start getting there, and that decision-making process always leaves some kind of carnage in its wake. I also shouldn't have made so many assumptions about you and Genevieve's relationship. On the surface, it always seemed so wonderful, and she was the picture of a sweet little girl any time I was around her, but the same can be said of one of my most unsuccessful significant other (who shall remain nameless), and he certainly gave me a hell of a time. In short, you can never be sure of what is happening on the inside of any situation that you aren't actually part of, and I had no place to pretend that I knew all of the fact of your life. The relationship I was talking about previously resulted in what was likely one of the worst decisions I've made in my entire life in regards to the feelings of others, but one of the best decisions I've ever made for myself, and how are you going to be able to keep those you care about happy, if you're not yet happy yourself? I know it sounds selfish, but any attempt I make at cheering someone up when I'm depressed as well is rarely successful, and always half-assed. I really do wish you the best in the future. I'm so happy you're enjoying college even though it's stressful, and I'm selfishly glad you miss us. All the best to you and this John character I've never met. I hope you enjoy much more happiness than you've ever had before.
Much love,
Katiesanspie