April
Quickly, before I go off to take this test and sit through a lecture after it (I hate when professors do that, argh).
April is a hard month for me. So is May. On the one hand, these are the months of renewal and lightness, when I feel the heaviness of the winter literally drop off me, but...on the other these are hard months because my father's birthday is in April and his deathday is in May.
My cousin's wedding was beautiful and I was very happy for her and I, of course, love when people compliment me for looking like a completely different person...but it was very hard to watch my Uncle Mike give her away, and even harder to watch them dance the father-daughter dance. It made me remember that bitter pang I felt when I graduated. It was a week after my father died, and though I spoke to him on his birthday and he told me how proud he was of me that I was going to graduate...there was an obvious absence on the day I actually did. And when my uncle gave my cousin away I realized that should I get married, my father wouldn't be there to give me away either.
Anyway...sorry to be Debbie Downer, but I've been kind of down lately. I am stressed out with my classes and need Spring Break in my life.
April is a hard month for me. So is May. On the one hand, these are the months of renewal and lightness, when I feel the heaviness of the winter literally drop off me, but...on the other these are hard months because my father's birthday is in April and his deathday is in May.
My cousin's wedding was beautiful and I was very happy for her and I, of course, love when people compliment me for looking like a completely different person...but it was very hard to watch my Uncle Mike give her away, and even harder to watch them dance the father-daughter dance. It made me remember that bitter pang I felt when I graduated. It was a week after my father died, and though I spoke to him on his birthday and he told me how proud he was of me that I was going to graduate...there was an obvious absence on the day I actually did. And when my uncle gave my cousin away I realized that should I get married, my father wouldn't be there to give me away either.
Anyway...sorry to be Debbie Downer, but I've been kind of down lately. I am stressed out with my classes and need Spring Break in my life.