it's a party and it's dead i gusse
what happened to me? i used to love parties. now i can't go to one without stressing out and feeling like an outsider. new cross has a 'odd' scenester party scene. parties happen you go you don't know any one and it's very unlikely that you'll know who's house it is. the idea of the game is to talk to new people. and make 'friends'. it's seems so pointless and shallow. and i never really get to talk to anyone there all in there one clicks. i force myself to go to these parties because i'm scared that i've lost it. i burnt out too soon.
when i was 14 i was clubbing everyday of the weekend chatting to anyone and getting wrecked, i miss it. it seems so hard to get into that and be comfortable now, maybe it the people, i'm starting to miss the goth clubs i hung out in but at the smae time i could be myself there either.. i like electro but i don't feel i can be myself i'm starting to really hate to people....GAH GAH help.
need. a . epic. weekend. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee
when i was 14 i was clubbing everyday of the weekend chatting to anyone and getting wrecked, i miss it. it seems so hard to get into that and be comfortable now, maybe it the people, i'm starting to miss the goth clubs i hung out in but at the smae time i could be myself there either.. i like electro but i don't feel i can be myself i'm starting to really hate to people....GAH GAH help.
need. a . epic. weekend. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee