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i feel empty.
i've come home and feel diconected and unable to feel. i don't feel apart of anything in this town anymore. apart from my family ov.
i just want to go back to london. it's not my home. but it feels better than here. i feel old here, the clubs and pub and town centre is mine anymore, i hardly recognise anyone there all 17-18. When i lived here i felt me and all my friends owned the town it was ours with reccognised everyone we new every story and every place. i look around and new please own it all and i'm old kid and i rember how i looked at the old kids who came back, rembering that creeps me out.
i want to feel i have a sens eof "home" i spose it will grow, but london seems so cold fun, but i can't ever see it being a home to me.
i miss friends,
i miss my space,
i miss making art,
i miss sam more than i'd like to let on.
i've come home and feel diconected and unable to feel. i don't feel apart of anything in this town anymore. apart from my family ov.
i just want to go back to london. it's not my home. but it feels better than here. i feel old here, the clubs and pub and town centre is mine anymore, i hardly recognise anyone there all 17-18. When i lived here i felt me and all my friends owned the town it was ours with reccognised everyone we new every story and every place. i look around and new please own it all and i'm old kid and i rember how i looked at the old kids who came back, rembering that creeps me out.
i want to feel i have a sens eof "home" i spose it will grow, but london seems so cold fun, but i can't ever see it being a home to me.
i miss friends,
i miss my space,
i miss making art,
i miss sam more than i'd like to let on.