noahs ark came to my house one day

[pixar]

i feel like im getting closer and closer to believing in something. i look at things in a different light now. i feel like theres got to be something up there doing all this. i'll occasionally find myself thinking, almost telling, god things. then i'll realize what im doing and think... well if there is one. im feeling very good about this though. i honestly feel aryn is a large part of this by the way. hes got such an intense faith. hes rather inspiring. theres still a lot of work to be done with me. i still have my doubts. but i feel like im closer than ive ever been. and i know people may ask, why not just believe, if you want to so bad. well its not that easy. i dont think about things the same way everyone else does apparently. i dont want to just believein god b/c im supposed to or b/c if there is one and i dont, i might go to some form of hell. im still not sure i believe in hell. but anyhow, i want to believe b/c i really truly feel in my heart that there is a god.

<3 laura.