Nightmares
Has this horrible dream last night that Kaleb was dead. Hit by a car, still a kid, but older than he is now. I don't remember any of that situation except being at the funeral. Unable to control my sobbing/crying. My heart was breaking, I could feel it to my core. In the dream I remember talking to Marcus and he said eventually we could have another baby, but I said no. My eyes tear up just thinking about it. I've never felt that much emotional pain in my life and it was a dream. I woke up and my pillow was soaked from crying in my sleep. What adult does that? What kind of warped mind would dream their kid was dead? So bizarre....