some good/some bad
SO lets see...
Cabaret is going nicely....the first 4 shows sold out...tonight was 3 seats short of selling out...Im going to be burnt out by the end of this month....I love it though. Its fucking awesome....Ill post some pix soon...
Im absolutely terrible at keeping secrets.....this is driving me nuts.
I need to get my hair touched up...but my stylist kind of pissed me off.....Ive gone to her 4 times...twice in the morning and twice in the afternoon..both times in the afternoon she messed up..so shes consistent with being inconsistent..but this time when I scheduled a time to have her fix her mistakes..she said I waited too long and now she wont do it for free...I didnt even ask her to do it for free..and now Im jaded, besides I couldnt make it any earlier..not with work & Cabaret....I feel like finding someone else, but I dont know....maybe Im just being bitchy...?
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I cant believe Im part of you, as much as I want to deny that its your blood thats running through my veins..I hate looking in the mirror and seeing your traits in myself...I try to ignore it, but sometimes I cant..I cant believe youd go this far, its fucking ridiculous..."one day you'll understand"..yeah? is that really the case? How can you being such a materialistic, vengeful, lying, manipulating, and tyrannical person...havent you heard of being a fucking human being?
Move on, let shit go....one day it will all come back to haunt you...When those around you have abandoned you and see you for what you really are....one day you'll see what you lost...you'll realized how much you've already missed and how much you'll miss in the future...It will eat you alive until youre a diseased shell of a human being with nothing inside...oh wait, you've already become that...with your twisted idea of reality, lying to yourself until lies become truth...
I try to turn my eyes away...turn my mind away...Ive tried to mend things, accept blame where I shouldnt be accepting it......but in the end I didnt do it for you and I, I did it for the young mind of a young person that I so desperately want to know....but thats fine..you've already removed me from your life...you've destroyed everything in your path and try to place the blame on everyone else but you...."i hope you become half the woman I am when youre my age"....oh dont you understand, Im already half your age and more of a woman than you will EVER amount to....
I suppose Ive been labeled a traitor....and thats fine....Everything youve said to me runs through my head...8 years of complete bullshit...8 years of being played like a pawn in a chess game..8 years of lies...as much as it tears me apart...I have to take a step back and walk away. Im sorry it had to be this way, but its all your fault and hopefully one day you'll see it, before its too late.
Im sorry I cant say I love you.
Cabaret is going nicely....the first 4 shows sold out...tonight was 3 seats short of selling out...Im going to be burnt out by the end of this month....I love it though. Its fucking awesome....Ill post some pix soon...
Im absolutely terrible at keeping secrets.....this is driving me nuts.
I need to get my hair touched up...but my stylist kind of pissed me off.....Ive gone to her 4 times...twice in the morning and twice in the afternoon..both times in the afternoon she messed up..so shes consistent with being inconsistent..but this time when I scheduled a time to have her fix her mistakes..she said I waited too long and now she wont do it for free...I didnt even ask her to do it for free..and now Im jaded, besides I couldnt make it any earlier..not with work & Cabaret....I feel like finding someone else, but I dont know....maybe Im just being bitchy...?
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I cant believe Im part of you, as much as I want to deny that its your blood thats running through my veins..I hate looking in the mirror and seeing your traits in myself...I try to ignore it, but sometimes I cant..I cant believe youd go this far, its fucking ridiculous..."one day you'll understand"..yeah? is that really the case? How can you being such a materialistic, vengeful, lying, manipulating, and tyrannical person...havent you heard of being a fucking human being?
Move on, let shit go....one day it will all come back to haunt you...When those around you have abandoned you and see you for what you really are....one day you'll see what you lost...you'll realized how much you've already missed and how much you'll miss in the future...It will eat you alive until youre a diseased shell of a human being with nothing inside...oh wait, you've already become that...with your twisted idea of reality, lying to yourself until lies become truth...
I try to turn my eyes away...turn my mind away...Ive tried to mend things, accept blame where I shouldnt be accepting it......but in the end I didnt do it for you and I, I did it for the young mind of a young person that I so desperately want to know....but thats fine..you've already removed me from your life...you've destroyed everything in your path and try to place the blame on everyone else but you...."i hope you become half the woman I am when youre my age"....oh dont you understand, Im already half your age and more of a woman than you will EVER amount to....
I suppose Ive been labeled a traitor....and thats fine....Everything youve said to me runs through my head...8 years of complete bullshit...8 years of being played like a pawn in a chess game..8 years of lies...as much as it tears me apart...I have to take a step back and walk away. Im sorry it had to be this way, but its all your fault and hopefully one day you'll see it, before its too late.
Im sorry I cant say I love you.