This year in retrospect..and what I look for...08'
This year had several life changing experiences for me. I can probably list a few, ...
like making new friends, joining new things, switching to new majors, failing classes and going on prohibition, having loved and lost.
But what I see, and relating everything on what I learned is that I care far to much for my friends. I look forward to pleasing them everyday...self conscious about my image, my choice of words, picking people on who to please, making sure each one I care about is happy. But what I realized....even though seeing my friends smile makes me happy....
I sacrifice to much of myself to make everyone happy....as in words of one of my friends, a "Fucking Tool."
I overwhelmed myself on what things that I should be doing. In other words, I was affected socially and mentally. I have let a lot of people down, as well as myself...and there is no way in recovering that. I really don't deserve any of my friends....because they are friends with me because of the superficial layer I convey...that includes every single of them.
But for the next year. I have three resolutions...
1) The Typical loose weight, but I do have a weight problem
2) Be myself
3) Think about myself first....because I will have to live my life sometimes..not my friends.
like making new friends, joining new things, switching to new majors, failing classes and going on prohibition, having loved and lost.
But what I see, and relating everything on what I learned is that I care far to much for my friends. I look forward to pleasing them everyday...self conscious about my image, my choice of words, picking people on who to please, making sure each one I care about is happy. But what I realized....even though seeing my friends smile makes me happy....
I sacrifice to much of myself to make everyone happy....as in words of one of my friends, a "Fucking Tool."
I overwhelmed myself on what things that I should be doing. In other words, I was affected socially and mentally. I have let a lot of people down, as well as myself...and there is no way in recovering that. I really don't deserve any of my friends....because they are friends with me because of the superficial layer I convey...that includes every single of them.
But for the next year. I have three resolutions...
1) The Typical loose weight, but I do have a weight problem
2) Be myself
3) Think about myself first....because I will have to live my life sometimes..not my friends.