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i need help. my parents are insane. i'm serious. last night chris nathan nikki and brynn came to my house to see me. i was talking to chris in the middle of my street . my dad comes outside tells my friends to leave, and for me to get inside. my mom is standing in the hallway to get into the kitchen. and my dad follows me inside. they asked me what i was doing. and i said i was talking. and they told me that it looked like i was sniffing something. cause i would rub my nose a lot. and i look really paranoid.
WHAT THE FUCK?!
damnit. i wish they would just leave me alone. i've already made that mistake in my life. why would i want to do it again? i learned the fuckin first time. fuck......i could have died for god sake.
i have an explanation for all of my actions last night.
1. it was cold outside. my nose was cold. therefor... i rub my nose.
2. paranoid? no. just talking to three people at once. i was trying to have a decent conversation with chris, but nathan and brynn got in the way. so.... i was looking behind chris... therefor it looked like i was being paranoid. if that's what you wanna call it.
3. crying last night, was due to the fact that my parents don't understand. they've never experienced anything like that. and they don't know what i've been through. they'll never understand. and it just hurt.