Tomorrow...

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...actually later on today, I'll be doing something that I've never done before. I'll be coaching my very first softball game - as the HEAD coach. I will not lie. I am nervous as hell. You see, I've NEVER been by myself. I've always been someone's Assistant or Co-Coach. Now, those of you that don't get it, it's truly not the same. I've always been the person that does all the dirty work while the head coach did the paper work and stuff like that. Now I'm the head coach and it's scaring the fuck out of me. OMG I just realized that I'm Willie Randolph. I've finally been given the opportunity to go out on my own and show people what I can do with a team. I'm excited, I'm nervous, I'm a lot of things right now. Nick's coming to the game, so that'll help a lit..LOT. It'll help A LOT. Mr. Hausdorf scheduled a game for Bryant, so he won't be there but i think I'm OK with that. I'd probably be more nervous with him actually there. There are a few people that I wish could be there, but they clearly don't seem to give a rats ass as to what's going on in my life right now, so that's no biggie. Then, there's Rob. Granted, if he were alive, he'd be at Bryant coaching tomorrow anyway, but he's not alive, so I *KNOW* he's gonna be there. For some reason, that's the thing that's making me the most nervous and I can't really understand why. Hmm...I guess it's just one of those things. I know there's someone that's been in a similar position. Got any advice?

People tell me that I'm a great coach and that I know what I'm doing out there. Why is it that I can't believe them? Oy.

I'm gonna try and get some sleep. The more I think about it, the more I'll drive myself crazy.