recurring loop
Ugh - I'm up late yet a-fucking-gain... Can't sleep - finally had to take something for it. Now just waiting for it to kick in.
For some reason, what's been keeping me up is this FUCKING recurring thought..."what if?" Mostly stuff like, "what if my business starts failing?" "What if the rest of my pets die tomorrow?" "What if my plane crashes?" "What if my CC number is stolen?" (actually - this happened last week and my bank caught it - yea Bank of America). Too many "what if"s going on in my head for me to handle now. I feel like I can't unwind because of all these thoughts going on.
I don't know what to do. I want to step away from my life - just for a couple of days. No business, no husband, no friends, no stimuli of any sort. Just to have a clear head and not think and not worry. It's so much stuff that I can easily talk to Brandon or anyone about except for the fact I feel crazy for doing so.
Ugh.
Otherwise - things are normal. Taking a motorcycle safety class this weekend. Going to a party. Status quo.
Except for this fucking loop playing over and over.
For some reason, what's been keeping me up is this FUCKING recurring thought..."what if?" Mostly stuff like, "what if my business starts failing?" "What if the rest of my pets die tomorrow?" "What if my plane crashes?" "What if my CC number is stolen?" (actually - this happened last week and my bank caught it - yea Bank of America). Too many "what if"s going on in my head for me to handle now. I feel like I can't unwind because of all these thoughts going on.
I don't know what to do. I want to step away from my life - just for a couple of days. No business, no husband, no friends, no stimuli of any sort. Just to have a clear head and not think and not worry. It's so much stuff that I can easily talk to Brandon or anyone about except for the fact I feel crazy for doing so.
Ugh.
Otherwise - things are normal. Taking a motorcycle safety class this weekend. Going to a party. Status quo.
Except for this fucking loop playing over and over.