If you aren't up for complaining don't read this one.

[pitbull510]

This is one of the few times you will hear me say this, but life sucks right now. Life, not just school, or cheerleading, or boys. Everything. Julie is a sad kid right now lol. Manny is sad, I haven't talked to Stevie since band camp, this was the last time I'm gonna hang out with Jaime for a really long time, I'm thinking about how I'm gonna have to deal with all my friends leaving this year, I don't wanna date anyone cough cough, and its becoming a problem, jesse leaves for the marines in a week and im actually seriously going to miss him, a bunch of ppl are leaving, I hate change, and I hate saying goodbye, and I hate everything lol. I have a habbit of running from my problems until they leave, and thats because usually my problems are avoidable. But this is real, like its life, and you can't run from it. I can pretend that I'm going to live in George's suitcase all I want, but when it comes down to it, he'll be in one place next year and I'll be in another. I'm not doing this to make any one feel guilty or make them remember me, but its really unlikely that with everything going for my friends that they will think of me when they are out like doing life stuff. I'm so not grown up, I like it that way really. But they have to be grown up pretty soon. They have to leave and go to school and prolly forget me. I'll be at high school where it will be so shitty b/c they're gone, and I literally love them so I will think about them like everyday, and I wouldn't blame them for not remembering me b/c they have new things and people and school to think about. There's so much, and its all sucking my white ass right now.... i hate hate hate it. g is nice and he is making it better, well no, hes not making anything better, but he wishes he could so thats a plus. and seth told me i have small boobs and he makes me laugh, and that is the only happiness in my life right now hahaha.

why wont the world stop for a little so i can adjust to things? just for like a tiny bit...