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Gosh, where to start here..what to say. I promised Dan I'd update so he could read and keep up with my lameness -twinkle- He's a sweetheart. Anyway..
Yesterday was the last Day of Silverleaf Ren Faire 2006. I woke up so excited and ready for it all to be over. I cried when the gates closed..yes...cried. Not because the faire was over, not because vendors were leaving..not because I didnt think it was coming back..because I know it will next year.
I cried because for the last 5 weeks, I've had more of a family then I've ever had in my life. For the last 5 weeks I've been a part of something amazing, wonderful and lifechanging. I've made friends, gave more hugs then I think I've ever given. I've made children smile, I've sweated more than I have in my entire life and I was a part of a fairytale I only dreamed of as a child.
When we're young we play in that 'fairytale' world. The heart and imagination of a child are two things that every person should carry with them for life. As we grow up, that fairytale gets replaced by the trials and regrets of real life. Those things we've always dreamed of, Prince Charming, Happily ever after, For some of us its just as small as having a family you feel comfortable with and know you're loved when you're around..but those things all fade away with every day we grow, getting replaced by the menial tasks of life, the trials...the realization that Life really isnt as easy as it seems. And No, I'm not saying hiding back in that fairytale changes that..But its nice to have a place to escape to..when the world kicks you...HARD.
And Hard, its been kicking. Let me tell you..I have had the worst two months in the history of my life. I cant keep money straight..my car is for 'sure' being taken from me this month and life is just on a gradual ..fast..downhill climb. Last Saturday I got a ticket on the way to faire..ANOTHER one..gah..and then this week I lost 60 dollars..SIXTY DOLLARS. All my Bill Money..GONE. -sigh- Still dont know what I'm going to do...honestly. But...as awful as the world is outside..as moody as I am when I come to faire..-which I'm so sorry everyone- When the gates open..it has to go. I'm not there for myself anymore..no more pity party..I'm on. Hard to explain..but I hope I did alright.. I'm so worried about not being let back next year...
So anyway..life..I dont even want to think nor talk about it right now -laugh- I think too much and silly things come out.
I told Dan I was goign to write some sappy things about him though so I must do that before I go to bed!
Dan is the sweetest most adorable, caring..and wonderful guy I think I've ever known. I wish I knew what the future held, but then again perhaps its somethign I dont want to know..Amy and I talked about him tonight actually. She likes him alot which makes me smile. She said..and I quote 'Just from the little I talk to, and know about him I can tell. He truly and sincerely cares about you' -beam- that comment made me blush..I didnt know how to reply..but it made my night.
So..Yay for Dan. I owe you more snuggles and such. I could say a tons more but I'll let it go for now because I still have an e-mail to write. I'll explain about ROPING PITA later!
Night All!
Katie Jo
Yesterday was the last Day of Silverleaf Ren Faire 2006. I woke up so excited and ready for it all to be over. I cried when the gates closed..yes...cried. Not because the faire was over, not because vendors were leaving..not because I didnt think it was coming back..because I know it will next year.
I cried because for the last 5 weeks, I've had more of a family then I've ever had in my life. For the last 5 weeks I've been a part of something amazing, wonderful and lifechanging. I've made friends, gave more hugs then I think I've ever given. I've made children smile, I've sweated more than I have in my entire life and I was a part of a fairytale I only dreamed of as a child.
When we're young we play in that 'fairytale' world. The heart and imagination of a child are two things that every person should carry with them for life. As we grow up, that fairytale gets replaced by the trials and regrets of real life. Those things we've always dreamed of, Prince Charming, Happily ever after, For some of us its just as small as having a family you feel comfortable with and know you're loved when you're around..but those things all fade away with every day we grow, getting replaced by the menial tasks of life, the trials...the realization that Life really isnt as easy as it seems. And No, I'm not saying hiding back in that fairytale changes that..But its nice to have a place to escape to..when the world kicks you...HARD.
And Hard, its been kicking. Let me tell you..I have had the worst two months in the history of my life. I cant keep money straight..my car is for 'sure' being taken from me this month and life is just on a gradual ..fast..downhill climb. Last Saturday I got a ticket on the way to faire..ANOTHER one..gah..and then this week I lost 60 dollars..SIXTY DOLLARS. All my Bill Money..GONE. -sigh- Still dont know what I'm going to do...honestly. But...as awful as the world is outside..as moody as I am when I come to faire..-which I'm so sorry everyone- When the gates open..it has to go. I'm not there for myself anymore..no more pity party..I'm on. Hard to explain..but I hope I did alright.. I'm so worried about not being let back next year...
So anyway..life..I dont even want to think nor talk about it right now -laugh- I think too much and silly things come out.
I told Dan I was goign to write some sappy things about him though so I must do that before I go to bed!
Dan is the sweetest most adorable, caring..and wonderful guy I think I've ever known. I wish I knew what the future held, but then again perhaps its somethign I dont want to know..Amy and I talked about him tonight actually. She likes him alot which makes me smile. She said..and I quote 'Just from the little I talk to, and know about him I can tell. He truly and sincerely cares about you' -beam- that comment made me blush..I didnt know how to reply..but it made my night.
So..Yay for Dan. I owe you more snuggles and such. I could say a tons more but I'll let it go for now because I still have an e-mail to write. I'll explain about ROPING PITA later!
Night All!
Katie Jo