Apr 30, 2011 19:52
I feel rather selfish today. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but I do know that I dislike it.
It got me thinking that tomorrow I will be as selfless as possible, but I would be doing it for a selfish reason and would therefore taint the purity of the act.
Brought me back to the thought of the unobtainable virtue that is selflessness. I would like to obtain this one day, but to do this I would have to loose my 'self'. While I would like to be generous and giving, I'm not sure if the price is worth it. Which in turn makes me feel more selfish. What a terrible terrible circle I find myself in.
The desire to be generous, for a non selfish reason. Does such a thing actually exist? Or have I just become cynical and bitter to the world?