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It's a coupld days after New Years. I've decided this.
I'm going to try to be better friends witht he people i've pushed away. I'm going to try more.
I'm going to stand up for myself more and not let people push me down.
I'm not going to be a bitch anymore. I'm really going to try to be a nice person. I need to be a better person.
Lastly, I'm going to be happy. It's senior year and i'm just going to be with the people who love me for me.
Another thing,
I didn't get in to Michigan State. I am so dissapointed in myself. I should have done way better in high school. I should have studied more, worked harded and gotten into more clubs to make me a well rounded person. Why can't i get into my school. It was supposed to be the place i was going to in the fall. But it's my life. Why would things work out for me? Am I stupid? Am I not worth it? There are so many questions that need to be answered.
Sorry I needed to get that off my chest, it feels good sometimes to feel bad for yourself. I know that sounds really weird but it does. Self pitty is something that makes you feel better. It helps you get over yourself.
Instead of going to my dream school I'm going to Eastern. My second choice school. Which is awesome. I'm really stoked. I can't believe that i now can acutally start my life. It sucks though because i highly doubt that any of my high school firends will come and vist me since Eastern is the ghetto college. Honestly but whatever. I'm so over caring about waht other people think of me or my decisons. If they want to come and see me next year they will. I have to start making myself happy and not worrry.
I have a bad feeling people are mad at me. If anyone is mad at me please talk to me and not someone else! It's so annyoing. I hope people arnt mad at me but i just have that bad feeling.
I'm going to try to be better friends witht he people i've pushed away. I'm going to try more.
I'm going to stand up for myself more and not let people push me down.
I'm not going to be a bitch anymore. I'm really going to try to be a nice person. I need to be a better person.
Lastly, I'm going to be happy. It's senior year and i'm just going to be with the people who love me for me.
Another thing,
I didn't get in to Michigan State. I am so dissapointed in myself. I should have done way better in high school. I should have studied more, worked harded and gotten into more clubs to make me a well rounded person. Why can't i get into my school. It was supposed to be the place i was going to in the fall. But it's my life. Why would things work out for me? Am I stupid? Am I not worth it? There are so many questions that need to be answered.
Sorry I needed to get that off my chest, it feels good sometimes to feel bad for yourself. I know that sounds really weird but it does. Self pitty is something that makes you feel better. It helps you get over yourself.
Instead of going to my dream school I'm going to Eastern. My second choice school. Which is awesome. I'm really stoked. I can't believe that i now can acutally start my life. It sucks though because i highly doubt that any of my high school firends will come and vist me since Eastern is the ghetto college. Honestly but whatever. I'm so over caring about waht other people think of me or my decisons. If they want to come and see me next year they will. I have to start making myself happy and not worrry.
I have a bad feeling people are mad at me. If anyone is mad at me please talk to me and not someone else! It's so annyoing. I hope people arnt mad at me but i just have that bad feeling.