Sorry!
Pardon for the lack of updates, I've been very occupied recently. I went to Alex's Thursday at like 2 in the morning because he happened to be up that late. Drove back to New Orleans with him and slept in late Friday. I was supposed to take him back Sunday morning before work, but I decided to keep him around for another night because I'm not going to see him until next Friday since I'll be out of town this weekend for Austin's graduation. Then, Monday I ended up sleeping through my alarm because I was so tired so I had to take him back this morning instead. It was nice having him around for that long, but its tough when I have to work. I have to leave him alone in the apartment for 6-8 hours at a time with nothing to do. Then when I get home he's all rested up because he hasn't had anything to do all day and has been napping and what not. But, I'm exhausted. He wants to stay up late and watch movies and fool around, but unfortunately I'm too tired to be much fun. He got upset because I told him I wanted to watch TV instead of have sex. In my defense, he was the one who put on the TV in the first place, and put in Dexter, which is very enthralling and hard to stop in the middle of. Plus, I was really tired and didn't think I'd be able to make it through a full session. Not to mention, sex has run into some problems. Without getting too graphic, lets just say that Alex can't really receive very well anymore because of a surgery he had. To avoid getting a scar (cuz he can't if he's going to do drag) he had the surgery done anally, and when he was sewn up it led to these problems. So, that's really put a damper on things and its upsetting him. Honestly it doesn't bother me that much, I don't have to have sex with him all the time to like him. I'd like for it to change eventually, because I don't know if I can go my whole life never having sex again, but I can wait for things to get better/fixed. In the mean time we have other things to keep us entertained in bed.
He also tried to talk to me about his mom and how she was making him depressed because of how she's been treating him. I don't really know what to say to that, I'm not a therapist, and I've tried to offer my advice in the past, but there's really not much I can do. I told him that all I can do is be loving and supporting, but that I don't have the answers he's looking for. I hope that doesn't become a serious problem, because things like that are what got in between Sam and I. I felt so bad about keeping him around for so long. I'm sure that he thought I was tired of him and that I was bitch because I was acting a little irritable. Honestly, its not his fault. Its just that on days that I have work, I have a routine that I go through to prevent it from being stressful, and he kind of throws that off a little. Plus, I don't get a whole lot of sleep when he's around, and that quickly screws up my mood.
Anyhow, I'm still glad I got to spend a few days with him. I won't see him till next Friday because I have to work tonight, tomorrow, and Thursday. Then I leave for Houston on Friday and come back Monday. I'm sure I'll be working Tue., Wed., Thu., because I'm off again Friday-Sunday for our trip to Mobile-Baton Rouge-Mandeville. I get to see him perform in two shows and then we're going to the Taking Back Sunday concert. We were supposed to spend the day at the beach on Saturday, but we added the show in Baton Rouge that night so we won't be able to. All I know is that I hope someone plans on chipping in for gas, because I can't afford to drive all around the tri-state area like that. I just paid all my May bills and the June ones are already rolling in. I didn't have money for rent, so my parents had to cover it. At least I got a little discount for all the move-in trouble I had, but it wasn't nearly as much as I was hoping for. Tomorrow and Thursday morning I need to get back on the hunt for another job so that I won't be stuck in the same boat next month.
Anyhow, I'm running really late for work. I'll update on the rest of my life when I get a free minute.
~Love
Nick
He also tried to talk to me about his mom and how she was making him depressed because of how she's been treating him. I don't really know what to say to that, I'm not a therapist, and I've tried to offer my advice in the past, but there's really not much I can do. I told him that all I can do is be loving and supporting, but that I don't have the answers he's looking for. I hope that doesn't become a serious problem, because things like that are what got in between Sam and I. I felt so bad about keeping him around for so long. I'm sure that he thought I was tired of him and that I was bitch because I was acting a little irritable. Honestly, its not his fault. Its just that on days that I have work, I have a routine that I go through to prevent it from being stressful, and he kind of throws that off a little. Plus, I don't get a whole lot of sleep when he's around, and that quickly screws up my mood.
Anyhow, I'm still glad I got to spend a few days with him. I won't see him till next Friday because I have to work tonight, tomorrow, and Thursday. Then I leave for Houston on Friday and come back Monday. I'm sure I'll be working Tue., Wed., Thu., because I'm off again Friday-Sunday for our trip to Mobile-Baton Rouge-Mandeville. I get to see him perform in two shows and then we're going to the Taking Back Sunday concert. We were supposed to spend the day at the beach on Saturday, but we added the show in Baton Rouge that night so we won't be able to. All I know is that I hope someone plans on chipping in for gas, because I can't afford to drive all around the tri-state area like that. I just paid all my May bills and the June ones are already rolling in. I didn't have money for rent, so my parents had to cover it. At least I got a little discount for all the move-in trouble I had, but it wasn't nearly as much as I was hoping for. Tomorrow and Thursday morning I need to get back on the hunt for another job so that I won't be stuck in the same boat next month.
Anyhow, I'm running really late for work. I'll update on the rest of my life when I get a free minute.
~Love
Nick