killing yourself to live.
ive been listening to sufjan stevens' album greetings from michigan a lot lately and it makes me calm. i've turned into an ice queen at work, but that's ok because i think it will prevent me from being one in other, more important, aspects of my life. i drank a half gallon of chocolate milk in 2 days. people from my past keep coming back to haunt me. i'm counting down the days until i move back to ypsilanti. i want to go on a road trip, or at least go somewhere that's not here for a couple days. allory's new phrase is "oh my goodness!" someone from my poetry class last semester e-mailed me saying that they were thinking about one of my poems and asked if i could send them a copy of it because they liked it so much. i'm going to finish AHWOSG soon, and then start on Moby Dick so i can finish before my american novel class starts. speaking of, i miss school so much. not to mention the usuals: carl, amber, rachel, caitlin, kathleen. i had a dream that i was catching mice that had red and blue ears. there's a piece of note paper on my computer desk with chinese characters scrawled on them, and i think it looks pretty cool (i did it, working on some puzzle thing). my phone never rings anymore. memories come flooding back, tidal waves of memories, so many that i cant process them all at once and i just have to go to sleep. im going to start weight watchers with my sister so i can get back to how i looked/felt at the end of last summer, and that excites me. i found the cutest skirt at old navy but it was too expensive so i'm hoping it goes on sale soon. i want to go for a bike ride. i think ill drive to detroit soon, and walk around and take pictures. i want a super cool digital camera like nate has. my tummy kind of hurts, like always. comí unos tacos malos :(
hugs? i want some!
hugs? i want some!