you showed me how ....
blehhh so this week i have been an absolute miserable pain in the ass to be around. numerous people have told me so haha. awesome. i blame it on my week as a woman and those awesome hormones that go along with it. i've been like so sensitive this past week, it's a shame. i let stupid little things get to me, things that really shouldn't have. i cried over A BOY. how lame. definitely the hormones. i also blame it on the week. it was a year since beck has been gone and i deal with that really difficultly and i just miss her and bug out. i take that pain out on other people when they do little things that bug me, i guess.... i dunno, it's been the most awful week of my life... i've never been more unhappy then i was this past week.....
THANKFULLY i am FINALLY back to my good ol' self and so so happy. i fear i ruined things with said boy as far as friendship goes, cause i got like crazy on him. i pray i didn't, cause he's an absolutely amazing person and would be a kick ass friend, but i dunno. he isn't really talking to me at the moment.. i don't blame him though. i just pray ....
side note: you know shit never works out the way you plan it to. i think that's the problem... you (meaning me) set your hopes up SO high, unrealistically high and of course it comes crashing down. i need to learn how not to set myself up for that. definitely something i need to work on.
and beck. ugh. i still miss her so much. and it still hasn't sunk into me that she's gone. this week has been really hard for me. it's been a year and i'm STILL not over it. i dunno.. i don't think i ever truly will be. it's just really hard sometimes.
hanson's new album came out on her year anniversary. so crazy. hanson is what our bond was in the beginning of the friendship. such a weird concidence. i swear it's a sign... but i'm also crazy.
okay i'm done rambling... but go pick up hansons new cd. it's fun. haha <3
THANKFULLY i am FINALLY back to my good ol' self and so so happy. i fear i ruined things with said boy as far as friendship goes, cause i got like crazy on him. i pray i didn't, cause he's an absolutely amazing person and would be a kick ass friend, but i dunno. he isn't really talking to me at the moment.. i don't blame him though. i just pray ....
side note: you know shit never works out the way you plan it to. i think that's the problem... you (meaning me) set your hopes up SO high, unrealistically high and of course it comes crashing down. i need to learn how not to set myself up for that. definitely something i need to work on.
and beck. ugh. i still miss her so much. and it still hasn't sunk into me that she's gone. this week has been really hard for me. it's been a year and i'm STILL not over it. i dunno.. i don't think i ever truly will be. it's just really hard sometimes.
hanson's new album came out on her year anniversary. so crazy. hanson is what our bond was in the beginning of the friendship. such a weird concidence. i swear it's a sign... but i'm also crazy.
okay i'm done rambling... but go pick up hansons new cd. it's fun. haha <3