It was a Thursday when I learned that I wouldn't be rehired for my former job. Today, I was told that I would be working with the six grade starting Monday
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This transition is going to be rough for all the reasons you've already mentioned. And even beyond your successful bonding with your kiddies, when push comes to shove this feels like a rejection. Rationally we know it is NOT a rejection of you or your ability, but it feels like one... And that's why the tears came. The truth in the matter is that you have not failed. From everything you have shared about the student(s) you work with closely, you have been a major factor in their lives. It may not seem that way to you, but in reality you have been a vital link between them and functional reality. Even though you are unable to "fix" their many problems, you have offered them (and their parents) some hope. You have been a constant in their chaotic existence, and someone who believes they are each worth the time and effort. In a society that often doubts their worth as students, productive future citizens, and lovable human beings, your mere presence has been an assurance that they matter. You have not failed them, and you have not failed yourself.
My personal belief is that there is a plan for you. Although it is tough, I have faith that great good will come out of your move. The frustrating thing is that we may never be privileged to know what that good is... Perhaps your arrival in the 6th grade will be just what some kid needs, even if we never know. Perhaps your presence is needed for the sake of another 6th grade teacher who is at his/her wits end, and needs your inspiration to continue. Perhaps you will speak to a 6th grade parent and inadvertently give her the hope she needs to be a better person for her child. We cannot possibly know the myriad ways our presence affects those around us. Having faith means believing that you are being called there FOR A REASON. And I have faith that you are needed.
I know that this change is a loss for you, and I mourn with you. It does - as previously noted - suck. At the same time, I believe that there is a reason for this transition. I know that for someone, immense good will come of it. Let me know how Monday goes.
My personal belief is that there is a plan for you. Although it is tough, I have faith that great good will come out of your move. The frustrating thing is that we may never be privileged to know what that good is... Perhaps your arrival in the 6th grade will be just what some kid needs, even if we never know. Perhaps your presence is needed for the sake of another 6th grade teacher who is at his/her wits end, and needs your inspiration to continue. Perhaps you will speak to a 6th grade parent and inadvertently give her the hope she needs to be a better person for her child. We cannot possibly know the myriad ways our presence affects those around us. Having faith means believing that you are being called there FOR A REASON. And I have faith that you are needed.
I know that this change is a loss for you, and I mourn with you. It does - as previously noted - suck. At the same time, I believe that there is a reason for this transition. I know that for someone, immense good will come of it. Let me know how Monday goes.
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