I wanna be like...
What is it that makes us all so different? I know there are many reasons for variances, but even if we were all raised by the same people/person in the same environment...we would still be different.
Different at the core
My eyes are sore
From trying to see your soul
What makes you tick
What makes you better
What secrets will I never know
What makes one person better, or worse, than another? Is it really us, or is it how we are viewed by others? Perhaps it is both. It's probably both, because then the question is completely unanswerable. What one sees as a strength, another sees as a weakness.
How, then, do you judge yourself with another person's standards? I know, I know, you shouldn't judge yourself that way, but I also know we all do it from time to time. I would even say that in certain instances it is necessary. Normally I avoid those instances, but I am now enmeshed in one of those horrible predicaments. Blegh. It always makes me feel empty inside, when I try to 'measure up' to someone or something. That's not true...it makes me feel empty when I feel that I have failed to measure up to someone. Someone asked me if I was broken today. I know it wasn't meant in a malicious way, but it still hurt. I am broken. I've put back the pieces as best I could and any other day I'd say that I did a damn good job too, but today...today I felt broken. I wanted to tell him that. I wanted to say that I was broken and that his words hurt, and that I...that I was sorry that I couldn't be better, but I couldn't. I couldn't say anything...it was very unlike me, which worries me. Doubt is a strange bedfellow to me, and I don't think I like it at all.
Different at the core
My eyes are sore
From trying to see your soul
What makes you tick
What makes you better
What secrets will I never know
What makes one person better, or worse, than another? Is it really us, or is it how we are viewed by others? Perhaps it is both. It's probably both, because then the question is completely unanswerable. What one sees as a strength, another sees as a weakness.
How, then, do you judge yourself with another person's standards? I know, I know, you shouldn't judge yourself that way, but I also know we all do it from time to time. I would even say that in certain instances it is necessary. Normally I avoid those instances, but I am now enmeshed in one of those horrible predicaments. Blegh. It always makes me feel empty inside, when I try to 'measure up' to someone or something. That's not true...it makes me feel empty when I feel that I have failed to measure up to someone. Someone asked me if I was broken today. I know it wasn't meant in a malicious way, but it still hurt. I am broken. I've put back the pieces as best I could and any other day I'd say that I did a damn good job too, but today...today I felt broken. I wanted to tell him that. I wanted to say that I was broken and that his words hurt, and that I...that I was sorry that I couldn't be better, but I couldn't. I couldn't say anything...it was very unlike me, which worries me. Doubt is a strange bedfellow to me, and I don't think I like it at all.