i hate my family
my freaking little brat that happened to be my brother is so annoying. he is only 8 but he is so strong, nearly as strong as me if not stronger, i'm 17. i was doing my assignment using the computer when he came suddenly and slapped me over the leg, that fucking irritated me so i yelled at him and told him to stop, that was when he started kicking me in the legs and stomach and then he grabbed my printed out homework and torn it into pieces, so things developed and he kept hitting me and stuff...
and then when my mom came she kept yelling at me because when i was pushing him away i left a mark on him, and he kept kicking me just right there in front of her and when i try to hit back she yells, eventually she pushed me to the chair as she was asking me to get out of the room and i didnt want to. and my sister called me a stupid bitch. i hate them all now, and i hope i never ever never forgive them, i always do but i really wish i dont now. i hate their guts. i love my brother but my parents extremely spoiled him, specially my bitch mom. i hate that woman. i never want to be like her. sometimes i get pissed at myself just because i'm her daughter. i mean, once, this fucking bitch told me that she hated me when i was 7. and i had that friend that she thought was a slut, she once called me a slut because i'm her friend. i remember this one time when i was 11 or something, i was pissed at her and i provoked her badly so she attacked me with her both hands on my hair grabbing it for like a minute or smething, she got hair out of my head.
i dont want to have a perfect family, i just want to feel that they love me and i dont want to sound pathetic but i guess only right now i am. the thing is that i'm really popular at school and almost everybody likes me and i have lots of friends, it just breaks my heart when i think of how my friends will look at me if they know how i get humiliated here at home by my little brother and his mom. no-one respects me here, they call me names, dad calls me dirty names and he curses at me specially when it comes to boys, when he knows i went out with a boy alone or something. i wish my life is easier than that. if i was a normal kid, i would move out of this fucking house when i turn 18 on november, but my dad pays for my college and i feel like they chained me i feel so helpless that i cant even leave. they sucked every bit of courage that once was inside me. i just miss my grandpa so much and i wish he was alive. he would have defended me and i knew he loved me. i'm all alone crying and feeling so humiliated. i'm not even pissed any more, i'm just broken hearted.
and then when my mom came she kept yelling at me because when i was pushing him away i left a mark on him, and he kept kicking me just right there in front of her and when i try to hit back she yells, eventually she pushed me to the chair as she was asking me to get out of the room and i didnt want to. and my sister called me a stupid bitch. i hate them all now, and i hope i never ever never forgive them, i always do but i really wish i dont now. i hate their guts. i love my brother but my parents extremely spoiled him, specially my bitch mom. i hate that woman. i never want to be like her. sometimes i get pissed at myself just because i'm her daughter. i mean, once, this fucking bitch told me that she hated me when i was 7. and i had that friend that she thought was a slut, she once called me a slut because i'm her friend. i remember this one time when i was 11 or something, i was pissed at her and i provoked her badly so she attacked me with her both hands on my hair grabbing it for like a minute or smething, she got hair out of my head.
i dont want to have a perfect family, i just want to feel that they love me and i dont want to sound pathetic but i guess only right now i am. the thing is that i'm really popular at school and almost everybody likes me and i have lots of friends, it just breaks my heart when i think of how my friends will look at me if they know how i get humiliated here at home by my little brother and his mom. no-one respects me here, they call me names, dad calls me dirty names and he curses at me specially when it comes to boys, when he knows i went out with a boy alone or something. i wish my life is easier than that. if i was a normal kid, i would move out of this fucking house when i turn 18 on november, but my dad pays for my college and i feel like they chained me i feel so helpless that i cant even leave. they sucked every bit of courage that once was inside me. i just miss my grandpa so much and i wish he was alive. he would have defended me and i knew he loved me. i'm all alone crying and feeling so humiliated. i'm not even pissed any more, i'm just broken hearted.