tears of frustration

[piscesgirl74]

You know when you are so frustrated with things, but trying to keep it to yourself and the tears come anyways?? Well that is what happened to me today. It's no secret that work is frustrating me to no end. Finding out that a friend has decided to not talk to me for some apparently dumb reason, is making it that much more frustrating.  It is obvious now that she is influencing other people to treat me like shit. Another girl today that she talks to did the completely bitchiest thing to me. My work is constant so when there is breaks to be taken there is always someone that comes to cover you. She came back from her break 5 minutes late, knowing she was suppose to cover me I start thinking about what I'm going to get to eat for my break. She comes back then starts to demand that she do someone elses job duty. After about 5 minutes the girl that was assigned to that job duty argues and confirms with the schedule that she is supposed to be doing that job. So she finally lets that girl do her job, but does not come over to cover for my break. I know she was doing it on purpose. She hovered in the office area diddle doddling making it look like she was doing work. After the time was over that my break was to end, she takes off her gown and goes to the other side where she was assigned to be after she covered my break.  It is is obvious to me that she knew exactly where she was supposed to be.  I start to think what the hell I did that she would do something like that to me, all the while I kept working.  I am trying to stay calm, and don't want to pull anyone else from where they were assigned to go  because it was busy at work. I decided that I didn't need my break. Finally after another girl came up and asked when my break was, because she noticed what happened as well. After  she asked me that,  my pure frustration came out the only quiet way it could. I started to cry.

I have no clue why they are doing this to me, and I know I should not be taking this personally. It is getting harder when things like that happen.

On a happier note. B bought me Eclipse and New moon yesturday.  I love how he notices the things I love and does stuff like that. He is an absolute sweetheart. I just can not put the book down.,