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GAWD!!!! not again!!! why does this always happen? it's a vicious cycle i tell you. vicious. i was really hoping jonathon would come see me in the shows tomorrow. it was going to be my time to show of and time for him to sit there and be proud and supportive. well, once again, i get this e-mail saying how sorry he is and that he just absolutely can't get out of work on friday night. how many times do i have to hear this story? it's like a broken record by now. i'm sick of it. but mostly because i feel like my heart is getting broken twice! once from th e-mail saying he's not coming, and twice because somewhere in the back of my mind i have this fantasy that at the last minute he'll show up and save the day, but deep down i know that in reality that's not going to happen, which is why my heart will be broken a second time. i'm so pissed. but what am i going to do? i guess i'll just have to have a dual affair with the kid that plays my husband in the play and also with the kid that plays our buttler. yup that seems about right. putting my skank powers to good use. yup.