Aug 08, 2007 15:04
I must first apologize to the Florida folks, I'm not coming down at all before class starts. I was supposed to go with my parents yesterday and spend one day there, then ride with my aunt back to Georgia the next day, but she decided to leave today, so I ended up staying here by myself until I move into dorm next week.
My vacation in China was definitely the greatest experience in the past few years. I got to meet most of my friends, family, teachers, and enjoyed life to the fullest. My trip to Japan was also unforgettable. There's so much I can talk about, there's so much I'd felt, I'm not going into details....but I can tell you that I'll go the second, third, fourth and nth time. It's a pity that Ryoko couldn't make it with us this time, I'm sure someday we'll end up there again, smiling to each other and greet,"Hey, you're here too?"
This summer was so memorable, I did as many crazy things as anyone can imagine. I was free, I was myself, I felt in love with people, I felt in love with myself. We went shopping, eating out, dancing, drinking, playing the die, kareoke, movies, camping, water spa, massaging, theme parks, national parks, hot springs, etc, etc..
As much as I want to think, what I've got most out of this trip, was love. Love from my Grandpa, Grandma, Uncles and Aunts, little brothers.
That night before I left, he folded the blankets around us, held me tightly to his lips and murmured those final words, I cried on his chest and said thank you and thank you for love.
He promised he'll never abandone me, even if I'm thrown to the end of the world, he'll come find me and meet me at world's end. One day he held me to his side, and asked if I wanted to go to hell with him.
I can never forget that night when we sat together outside the tatami room in urban Japan, overlooking that endless lake leading into the Pacific Ocean, under the silver moon, licking our ice cream at 3 am, talking about our childhood, our family and our lives. When he mentioned that I told him I like him, before we were ten, he said 'silly girl'. He remembered me telling him that I like him when we were barely fifteen, he said 'silly girl'. Then I turned around, smiling, and said "I love you", he smiled too, and said "I know." I hugged him and bit his neck, broke into tears because he remembered those things that I used to think I'd forgotten and completely abandoned. That's the man who can make me come to tears with just one word or one gesture, one look, one expression.
That's someone I can trust, someone I can love with my soul.
He's always there, and they're always there.
I met Hua Hua, she stayed with me for one night, we talked until twilight. I didn't get to see her in person before I left like I promised, but she texted me and said, "You're my best friend for life." I told her that I knew, she cried for me when I left China some 5 years ago, I promised, this time I'll cry for her. We ended up crying together on the phone anyway..Hua Hua never changed, we all grew up, but we're still who we are, which I am glad. She's doing fine with her 3 bands, she goes to shows a lot and music competitions, I can only wish her luck.
I've always felt sorry, because I couldn't protect her when she got deeply hurt a few years back. But she said, even if she goes back in time, she'd still have done the same thing again, without a second of hestitation. I told her that I'll be there for her, whatever she does or decides. I love this dear friend of mine and I'm really glad that we could at least meet up once. I promised that I'll see her again in two years.
Honestly, if I can't take it anymore I'll go to China again next summer.
I got so much out of this vacation, seriously, I feel like I can be myself again, refreshed. I should be able to set myself free.
Uwa...I miss them.